Birthday Ramble

This is a  post on my 58th birthday as I race toward old age with no regrets and no apologies for indiscretions. Though lame, I’m still young at heart, had a great time getting here, will enjoy what’s left and cling with fury to my rebel spirit, borne of the Sixties.
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Maybe I should start capturing my thoughts on tape or carry a notepad, pulling to the side of the road to jot down catchy phrases that flow from my imagination. That’s what I kept thinking on the highway Friday morning, alone with my thoughts as I so often am, be it walking the dogs, secluded in a forest stand, on the road, or just sitting at my computer during the day, thinking, probing, sneaking into forbidden territory, peeking over hedgerows. Who makes it forbidden? That’s what I always ask. And then I realize it’s seldom anyone worthy of respect unless seeking a flock. Not me. I’d rather be that solitary ram observing from a promontory ledge, descending now and again for visits, otherwise aloof, following my own principles, sidestepping confrontation.

I was told young that an idle mind is a devil’s workshop, which may be true for some; was, in fact, true for me. Not anymore. I have learned to enjoy introspection and reflection, stranding myself on distant islands of thought, kneading stimuli onto an impressionistic canvas, fog evaporating to expose raw pains and pleasures, joys and heartache, the reasons why. I guess it’s existentialism. And when you think about it, are we not all isolated beings trying to fit into the whole? Or is it a hole? Are we not, with or without friends and family, just flotsam and jetsam in a vast sea of hostile humanity? In the absolute, aren’t we all alone? Some don’t believe it. A decent man who makes his living helping families cope with issues once told me in convivial conversation that existential thought was passé. After that assessment, I never listened to a word he said, just nodded my head with one of those empty Prozac smiles. I knew then that life was clearer to me, the flunky, than him, the expert with gilt-framed degrees, just another self-absorbed therapist paid to impart conventional wisdom irrelevant to flocks of one.

Before departing Friday on my 138-mile journey to pick up 5-year-old grandson Jordie in Montpelier, I chose Tara Nevins’ CD “Mule to Ride” for musical companionship; loud, of course, her blissful fiddle carrying me away like butterfly lust, stirring thoughts and memories, good and bad, all enticing. There was plenty to think about, poignant memories, me returning to Vermont’s capital city for the first time since my namesake son’s December funeral. Prior to that, my previous journey up that same Route 89 occurred before first light, racing my big black touring rig to watch him die. This time, before I left, my wife asked if I remembered overnight dreams about Gary. I did not. She said I had dreamt of him. She heard me call out his name twice in the darkness, like I saw the back of his head in a dense, busy crowd and wasn’t sure it was him. That was news to me. No recollection. Made me wonder what else she’s heard in my sleep.

The Interstate was enveloped in gray, somber skies and occasional rain, some hard, as I cruised with the CD player roaring, lifting my consciousness. Virtuoso bluegrass musicians can bring tears to my eyes when I concentrate, their riffs and harmonies so crisp, clear and inspirational. Why be afraid to admit such a thing, even to tough guys who carry guns or wrestle jackhammers? Tears are not shameful, not feminine, either. Art can move a man, and some of those harmonies and riffs were moving indeed, bringing euphoria to my dark, reminiscent soul. I remember thinking how sad it is that artists and nature can achieve perfect harmony, but not human societies, where it’s fleeting at best, non-existent at worst, always elusive. You watch something as simple as a gray squirrel scampering through oak limbs shielded from birds of prey by foliage and know they are friends, leaves and squirrels, even though they have never hugged or spoken. The cow or horse deposits pasture manure and from it springs life and sustenance. Not so with humankind, the great harmony breakers whose wastes kill and maim and pollute, bring blood and mucus to lungs. This revelation sparked in me momentary shame, guilt for being one of them, a harmony breaker. The music pulled me there. Yes, the music, Tara Nevins’ hard-driving bluegrass fiddle slicing through me like a cutlass, the plaintive lyrics about love and loss, pain and suffering soothing my soul. I was riding melody to psychological exploration and discovery.

Suddenly my mind wandered to Gary’s music, the songs he wrote about love of his family and distrust of authority. He never forgot or forgave the blue-clad brute who body-slammed him and broke his neck in a parking lot while handcuffed behind his back, or the ones who pinned him to the pavement with a knee in his back to handcuff him, supposedly for assaulting them. A miracle videotape passersby recorded by chance told a different tale, one the authors of official reports decided better avoid the courtroom. Perjury is crime, even when committed by law-enforcement officials. Police brutality is no different than rape or pedophilia. The victim’s helplessness plants deep hatred and distrust that can later sprout in song and sonnet, rant and rave and rap. As I thought of this and other complications I have grappled with over the years, I started to fantasize about writing a book, not about salmon and shad and cougars, or hunting and fishing yarns, or ballpark heroes; about life and sense of place, greed and shame and exploitation, other risque subjects most folks are afraid to talk about, ashamed to admit. I’m not interested in missionary-style books like those being hawked every day on Morning Joe, or even the bestsellers written by stylists who rise quickly to the top by staying inside the cultural paddock. No, give me the rebels any day. I’d prefer to pen something that’s banned in the schools, censored by the government, burned in the public square by freedom’s proud guardians. Yes, I know, it’s pure fantasy, but I’d like to bull-rush taboos, enrage main street and get the devout flock, the ones sitting in the front row, squirming like sheep grazing in the shadow of that solitary wolf biding its time from high, barren outcropping.

My mind was racing. Why didn’t I have a recorder? This was great stuff bubbling to the surface. I wanted to capture it. The imagery, the fire, inappropriate metaphors that would roil conservative stomachs, send the afflicted knock-kneed to the john. Blasphemous, anti-establishment, outrageous; all of the above. I was on a roll, felt liberated, defiant and bold. But then it all came to an abrupt halt, like waking from a dream, one you try to go back to sleep for. A big green roadside sign broke my spell. It read “Exit 8, Montpelier, 1 Mile.”

I lowered the volume, bore right onto the exit ramp and merged with traffic following the Winooski River. The capital building, its brilliant gilt dome aflame under dull skies, soon came into view. From there, it was a left at the lights, over a bridge, a quick left, a right and another quick left onto a street named Deerfield. Imagine that: Deerfield, my hometown and that of my kids’; just around the corner, an intersecting street named Greenfield. Coincidence? You tell me. Surreal, for sure.

I pulled into the driveway and got out. Jordie and his mom were scrambling to pull things together. Little Arie stood at a second-floor window, chin barely clearing the sill, peering out. He recognized the big black sedan, was excited.

“Nanny?”

“Sorry, Arie Safari, only Grampy.”

He wasn’t disappointed, gave me a warm, genuine smile inside.

Soon Jordie and I were back on the road for my return trip to Massachusetts. I reached down and turned the CD player off. This journey would be different, no rambling thoughts or fantasy, just plain conversation, man to boy, boy to man. We weren’t on the road five minutes before the subject of Gary arose. Tim and Kenny had visited. They missed Daddy. My wife learned the next day that Tim took one look at Jordie and cried, the loss so fresh and painful, the resemblance striking. Then Jordie mentioned Mommy’s new friend Matt; he knew karate and martial arts. What can you do? We knew it was coming.

The air had changed. The return trip would be equally poignant, more grounded and less stimulating. I had ridden in alone with the swelling tide, was now riding the ebb tide home with Jordie. I hope I can help the kid become a good man, teach him life’s lessons. Maybe teachers will warn him not to listen, will tell him I’m a bad influence. Perhaps he’ll ignore their advice.

I guess all I can ask is that he follows his conscience and clears his own path, isolated and vulnerable like the rest of us. I’ll be sure to teach him that the most important person in the world to know is yourself. Then, maybe, you can process the rest.

Man’s Best Friend

Catalpa pollen, fawn prints, second nests and puppies: that’s where we’re headed today after an otherwise uneventful week by a careful observer in the fertile Meadows.

Catalpas? Well, my itchy eyes and allergic tickles should have told me they were blooming. As kids we called them banana trees, and they bug me every year around my birthday, a seasonal irritant. Still, I had no clue the trees had flowered until taking a quick trip south Wednesday for meat, veggies and berries. Grandson Jordie is coming to town for the weekend. He told his mother he wanted to go to Massachusetts, and we’re always glad to have him. The kid’s so similar to his late dad; inquisitive, full of questions, sometimes even bossy in a good way. He’ll enjoy little yard chores, splash around in the brook and accompany me on daily Sunken Meadow walks with the dogs, including a new male puppy tagalong, one I may or may not keep. I guess it all depends on what develops and how fast. In the meantime, I better stop calling the little fella Chub-Chub, though, because I don’t expect it to be appropriate for long. For me, yeah, sadly it works. Not for him. Quite the contrary. He’ll soon be lean and leggy, strong and athletic, especially when bounding off his hind legs like a kangaroo through heavy, thorny cover, front legs outstretched high and gracefully over the top when fresh, intriguing scent fills his nostrils. For now, though, he’s just a baby figuring it all out, tagging along with his parents, responding surprisingly well to Chub-Chub or Chubby-Chub or variations thereof. Yep, I better find him a home or a real name soon.

There’s no hiding Chubby’s aristocratic English springer spaniel pedigree, national champions from three countries and two continents lining up behind him on both sides; that and many plain-old field champions, dynamos from the national circuit, all good, some extraordinary. My wife warned me long ago to advertise, said she didn’t want me to get attached. And, to be honest, I told myself “never again” the last time I owned three gun dogs. It’s too many. But when it comes to companionship for my daily meanderings, I can still lean toward masochism, so here I sit with three dogs.

Having only two pups to sell, I figured a lawn sign would suffice. The female went fast, is named Sarah and settled into the Colrain/Heath highlands. She’ll have hundreds of picturesque upland acres to roam, much of it open; pheasants, grouse and woodcock, to boot. Could it get any better for an energetic field spaniel? I don’t know how.

So now it’s just me and Chub-Chub, who’s getting more spoiled by the second. He enjoys free reign of the backyard alcove between woodshed and barn, both open, just biding time until a passerby stops to buy a new pet. I keep thinking it’ll be a New York or southern Connecticut family heading to its southern Vermont country home. I’d clearly prefer that to a local hunter. I’m always reluctant to supply competing dogs for my favorite coverts. Frankly, if the dogs I sell are going to hunt, I’d rather they do it elsewhere; either that or chase a Frisbee or tennis ball along some gilded shore. Take it from the local owner of a closely related bitch purchased from my old softball/hunting buddy. Midway through his second year in the field, the hunter phoned my friend to scold him for not warning he’d need an extra freezer, too.

Anyway, enough of that. I’m not sure I can part with Chubby, anyway. Off to Sunken Meadow, a private spot where I’ve been running the little guy twice daily since the weekend. Just eight weeks old and from the start more timid than his littermate, I only had to lift him from truck bed to ground once. Ever since, to my surprise, he’s followed his parents, leaping down without fear, never once losing his feet. We all know the idiom “hit the ground running.” Well, he literally did. Once on the ground and bulldozing through green, shin-high cover, it’s comical to watch him sprint to intercept his mother or father as they approach at full speed, totally on a mission, tails wagging, searching for scent, be it rabbits or turkeys or grouse or woodcock or whatever; even a noisy chipmunk works when bored. Although I’m not certain little Chubby-Chub quite understands exactly what they’re up to just yet, he’ll get it real fast. All he needs is a few more incidents like the one he witnessed Monday morning; it even surprised me a little, and answered a question I had internally entertained a few weeks back.

The question was: Did that long, rainy stretch of late May wreak havoc on turkey nests? I suspected not because the worst danger for such nests is drenching rains soon after the hatch. Such untimely rains saturate nestlings, which quickly develop pneumonia and die, wiping out entire broods in rapid fashion. On the other hand, hens are usually able to protect eggs from rain by sitting on them, although it’s true that overprotective mothers can be vulnerable to predators by staying with their nests too long. From what I witnessed Monday, at least one local hen lost its brood this spring and has re-nested.

For the second time in three weeks my dogs flushed a hiding mature hen from close quarters among Christmas trees. I figured it was a nesting hen the first time I saw it flush and watched it fly across the field and down the Green River flyway, Buddy sprinting after it at full speed. This time it was Lily who flushed a tight-holding hen from a different location in the same quadrant of the field. I didn’t check for a nest for a couple of reasons but figured there was probably one there, snuggled up to a Christmas tree, similar to the duck nest the dogs found for me last spring. A few days later, the ducklings were swimming the river behind the hen.

It was interesting to watch that turkey explode from the field. I knew Lily had winded something, probably a rabbit judging from the frantic way she was working. Then, after we had walked past the concealed bird and Lily had broken through a dense multiflora rose border into the tangled wetland, she quickly reversed direction and popped back into the field, sprinting straight down a path between two rows of trees and flushing the big bird three feet from her nose. I happened to be watching when the bird flushed, its flapping wings clearly audible from maybe 50 feet away. Little Chubby caught the commotion, too, and promptly scooted back to me for protection as Lily streaked after the bird, which took a similar route to the one Buddy had flushed. I figured it had to be the same bird, this time setting on her second nest, which would soon hatch a clutch of nestlings, then fledglings looking nervously down at us from their hardwood perch. Had the hen’s first nest survived, her poults would have been there Monday. She was alone.

With that little performance behind us, we continued our trek around the meadow’s perimeter, songbirds serenading, bluebirds flashing, a brilliant Baltimore oriole shining in bright background sunlight as it flew out of an apple tree along the river’s edge. There, Buddy and Lily jumped over the undercut bank and ran into the water, slurping as they walked shoulder-deep upstream, then cooling off with a leisurely swim, Chub-Chub watching from the bank, tail wagging excitedly. Soon he’ll join them, on his own terms.

When the adult dogs left the river, they shook a simultaneous rainstorm, jumped back up onto the meadow plain, shook again, and sprinted down the final leg of a familiar journey. Following a riverside farm road, strip of grass down the middle, toward a tall sycamore, I noticed deer tracks in the hard, sandy soil, some big, others tiny. I could have covered the tiny prints with a quarter. Soon I hope to see the spotted fawn or fawns that left them, a sight I never tire of.

Who knows? If I keep little Chubby, he may soon meet his first fawn and turkey brood down by that river. In fact, I’d say it’s pretty likely. I visit the sanctuary often, so peaceful and quiet. But don’t tell my wife. I don’t think she wants to hear it. Two dogs is enough for her, and me.

Maybe I should select an old biblical name like Jedediah or Hezekiah or Zachariah, something to celebrate his Old English ancestry, and mine. If not, I’ll come up with something else, if I hold onto him. In fact, I’m not sure I’ll be able to part with him, now. The more I observe him, the better he looks.

Yes, I think Chub-Chub’s a keeper.

Road Kill

So, what’s up with this dead cougar that showed up on a Milford, Conn., highway early Saturday morning?

If this is the first you’ve heard of it, then it’s either shame on the news sources that feed you or shame on you for living in a bubble. The story spread like the Arizona wildfires, beginning at breakfast time Saturday morning when my inbox was inundated with tips and links to developing online reports. By Saturday afternoon, the story was running wild, growing by the minute, new information piling up on each hourly “milford mountain lion” keyword search. By now it’s old news, has been reported nationwide and into western Europe. And this cougar tale was no Internet hoax. No sir. The proof was right there, laying dead for everyone to see on that section of Route 15 called the Merritt Parkway.

“Are you sure it wasn’t New Milford?” asked the first man I called Saturday morning with the news. He was referring to the rural northern Fairfield County hilltown north of Danbury, where the green, rolling landscape is strikingly similar to Conway or Ashfield. No, I told him, not New Milford; the coastal town of Milford, snuggled between Bridgeport and New Haven, not a place where you’d expect New England’s first road-killed cougar to appear. But there it was. No denying it. Dead as a freakin’ doornail. Big, too.

It wasn’t like the 140-pound male cat came out of nowhere. Several cougar sightings had been reported in the posh New York City suburb of Greenwich, Conn., some 40 miles down the road from Milford. Someone there had even snapped a photo that was convincing enough to warrant town-wide warnings for residents to keep an eye on their children and pets. A prep school along the periphery of the sightings had even cancelled an outing. Then, just after 1 a.m. Saturday morning — Bang! — it happened, a compact SUV killed a cat on the Parkway. Officials, who say they’re certain the dead animal had lived in captivity and either escaped or was released, believe it and the Greenwich cat were the same animal. Two Greenwich citizens who reported cougar sightings after the road-kill beg to differ. So, apparently, does Audubon Greenwich, which has temporarily closed its hiking trails.

So now it’ll be interesting to monitor the situation and see where the story goes. Finally, after surging Northeastern cougar sightings over the past decade, a beast shows up dead on the road just three months after the United States Fish & Wildlife Service (USFW) had changed its Eastern cougar classification from endangered species to extinct. No wonder they were so quick to dismiss the dead cat as an escaped captive. The story had to put them in an uncomfortable place. But to be fair, spokespeople from the Cougar Rewilding Foundation (CRF), formerly known as the Eastern Cougar Foundation, also believe the dead animal was probably not wild and expect scientific analysis to reveal just that.

“Until we see DNA and results from the necropsy (autopsy), a former captive is the honest answer,” wrote CRF spokesman Christopher Spatz, a New York researcher who has diligently followed leads for many years and come up empty in attempts to substantiate the presence of Northeastern cougars.

Spatz’s CRF colleague Helen McGinnis concurred, opining the dead cat was more likely a former captive than a wandering male that had found its way from the Midwest to Connecticut. “Just look at the roadmap to see how difficult it would be for a cougar to get from Michigan, Indiana or southern Florida (the closest states where big cats are known to exist),” she wrote. Yet, although it’s true that such a trek would be challenging, it clearly isn’t impossible.

A thorough examination of the road-killed cat’s carcass revealed no obvious signs that it had been held captive — no tattoos or tags, no collar, not de-clawed, a lean physique more typical of wild animals. The Connecticut Department of Environmental Protection will have the cat analyzed to determine its origin, if possible. If they discover that it was indeed wild, or cannot prove otherwise, I wonder what the “official finding” will conclude? Maybe a weak, innocuous report that the neutered press will accept without question and forget about.

As a veteran scribe who’s reported many credible cougar sightings and spoken to several experts about them over the past 30 years, I long ago concluded that there is no evidence to support the existence of a breeding Northeastern cougar population. Still, I scoff at the notion that every cougar sighting I have written about was in fact a hallucination or an escaped captive. And how about this one: Now that the officials must lay out damage-control information to douse this Connecticut brushfire, the Associated Press reports that Massachusetts officials have over the past 27 years confiscated six captive cougars, most recently in 1993. Why, I ask, if this is so, has no one ever mentioned a word of it to me, likely the New England scribe who has written more than anyone else on the subject over the past 10? The fact is that despite being cooperative throughout my years of interviews and reportage, officials have, since the beginning — way back in the 1980s when Virginia Fifield was stationed in the Pioneer Valley specifically to investigate cougar sightings — always made it clear that they would prefer I didn’t draw attention to cougars. Yet not one of them alerted me to several seizures of illegally held Massachusetts captives? The silence doesn’t make sense unless I’m missing something. In fact, as time passes, this cougar-discovery business only seems to get more confusing.

Contributing to the confusion is the latest bombshell I uncovered just this week by asking a simple, logical question. When I asked if the experts had ever proven that North American cougars from the East and West were different cats, McGinnis wrote: “I am certain the eastern and western cougars are NOT separate species. They are not even a subspecies. The comprehensive study of cougar DNA throughout their North, Central and South American range, done by Melanie Culver and associates, published in 2000, concluded that there are only six subspecies of cougars and only one in all of North America. By the rules of zoological nomenclature, the North American subspecies is Puma concolor couguar. Although some cougar biologists question this conclusion and believe the Florida panther is a separate subspecies, no geneticist/DNA specialist who has further investigated Culver’s work disagrees with her. There has also been a study of viruses carried by various cougar populations that support Culver’s work.

“That doesn’t mean that all North American cougars are alike,” she added. “There are some distinct populations, including the Florida panther, for sure. Elsewhere, there are gradual changes in what constitutes a typical cougar, especially going from south to north. A cougar in Arizona is much smaller and has shorter fur than a typical cougar in Alberta, for example.”

Which makes a lot of sense. Think of it. The same can be said of white-tailed deer, which are larger in northern climes where life is tougher than in the warmer South. There is even an obvious difference between Northeastern deer from opposite ends of the region, with Northern New England whitetails dwarfing those from Pennsylvania.

So how about that? USFW classified as extinct a species — Eastern cougar — that never existed. What the agency should have ruled was that Puma concolor couguar no longer colonizes the Northeast. Of course, the same could have been said 25 years ago about states like Illinois, Michigan, Indiana, Kansas, Nebraska and Missouri, all of which are now on the cougar map, some of them perhaps only as states where “dispersers” occasionally pass through. Dispersers are defined as wayward sub-adult males driven away from territory by dominant males. So who can say with any certainty, as these dispersers become more common and perhaps start extending their eastern range, that a breeding population will not also start creeping eastward as well?

There were many factors that led to Northeastern cougar extirpation by the early 20th century, not the least of which was human persecution. But also the forests had been cleared, deer (cougars’ primary food) became scarce and cougars vanished. Now, with the forests and deer populations back, what’s stopping the king of North American cats from following them, even in small numbers, beginning with dispersers? Even CRF won’t go out on a limb and make that prediction. But what’s to stop cat recolonization now that the forests have returned?

In discussions about cougars with wildlife biologists I respect, a recurring question by them has been: “If cougars are here, then why aren’t they being killed on the highways?” Well, now that day has arrived. I suspected, maybe even hoped, it would happen closer to home, or in the wilds of New York or Vermont; was not expecting it to occur a stone’s throw from the Big Apple. But something tells me there will be another, and another. Call it instinct, the same natural impulse that’s pushing dispersers eastward.

Never say never. That’s my mantra. That and don’t underestimate the forces of nature.

Fortitude

Strawberries are ripe, hayfields are scalped and the sweet smell of wild rose fills the meadow air … along with a personal sense of accomplishment following a fruitful weekend trip to The Fort at No. 4.

There, in historic Charlestown, N.H., participants from far and wide converged for an entertaining French & Indian War battle re-enactment I attended with wife Joanne and grandson Jordan Steele Sanderson. The event drew quite a crowd — retired Recorder chum Donnie Phillips among them — on a perfect, sunny Saturday. Like me, Phillips may have ancestors who manned that fort at one time or another back in the day when wars were fought for survival, not oil and greed.

We picked up Jordie at our regular White River, Vt., rendezvous point and backtracked to Charlestown, t’otha side the rivva’ from Springfield, Vt., where the reconstructed, 2/3-acre, picketed fort was bustling with fascinating activity for any 5-year-old. When we exited our parked car, he was immediately confronted with an encampment of tents, roaming soldiers, natives and “suttlers,” kids too, all in period dress and inviting discussion while staging a fantasy Jordie was still playing out the next day, skulking around the yard, front and back and sides, with an old Red Ryder BB-gun his late father once proudly toted.

The kid was particularly impressed with the three-story watchtower overlooking the Connecticut River from the fortified village’s southwest corner. He demanded that I accompany him for a visit, up three flights of primitive ladder stairs. It was cool. He had to show me. Prior to that, what most captured his fancy was the upstairs bedroom of his ninth great-grandfather, Lt. Isaac Parker — one of No. 4’s original settlers, second in command to Capt. Phineas Stevens — who had a large, wheeled cannon standing next to his bed in the northeast corner of the fort, a shuttered hole in the wall to poke its barrel through. Jordie stood proudly next to it, bright smile, hand on the weapon for a photo I will cherish.

Later, during the hour-long “Seige of 1747” re-enactment, Jordie got to hear the thunderous, smoky roars of field cannons, some larger than others, along with the reports of flintlock rifles, marching music from fifes, drums and bagpipes, orders barked by Redcoat, Bluecoat and militia officers, and Native war screeches. “Are you a real Indian,” Jordie asked a passing, barebacked, copper-colored man sporting leather leggings, a leather powder bag strapped over his shoulder, and two eagle feathers tied into the back of his long, shiny black hair that seemed to match in color his warm, piercing eyes. “I am,” the man responded. “This was the home of my Abanaki people before they were scattered in all directions. Myself, I grew up with the Apaches in the Southwest. I came home.”

As they spoke, sun high, Jordie firing one appropriate, cognitive question after another, I stood on a gentle bluff overlooking the fertile riverside meadow, just listening, facing west, looking at two lush, green, end-to-end Vermont ridges across the glassy, blue-brown Connecticut. Although I had never physically been there, I knew I was not looking at the distinctive landscape for the first time. Yeah, I may be crazy, but I attribute that revelation to heritage and roots. No. 4 is in my blood, my soul, my core. I hope it will also someday similarly reside in Jordie. When trying to figure out life, its twists and turns, pains and pleasures, joys and heartaches, it never hurts to know who you are and where you came from. It’s settling. Can’t imagine folks who have no clue and never will. Such an unconquerable void, a gaping genealogical hole of emptiness, deprivation and shallow existence.

On our way out of the compound, I, of course, stopped in the gift shop to buy books about the site, including Rev. Henry Hamilton Saunderson’s familiar 1876 “History of Charlestown, N.H.,” which I have often perused online, always chasing information. Skimming through it later that night after a backyard cookout, I found an interesting item listed near the beginning of the chapter titled “Historical Miscellany.” It opens with a list of original No. 4 grantees, another list of original proprietors, a 1737 grid of the village plot, and a list of 1754 landowners. The addendum to that landowner list, an official document adjudicating the estate of “Widow (Rachel Parker) Sartwell and heirs” caught my attention upon noticing a familiar name. Two of the heirs were Adonijah Taylor and wife Rachel, above them two more who raised an immediate flag: Micah Fuller and wife Lois. The two women, Lois and Rachel, were sisters, daughters of Widow Parker and late husband Ensign Obadiah Sartwell, who was “killed by Indians while plowing” outside the fort on June 17, 1749. The Sartwell and Parker families came to No. 4 from Groton. Taylor was born in Leicester.

Adonijah Taylor has for years been to me a person of interest. In 1803, he sold his hillock home, farm and saw and grist mills in the southwest corner of Deerfield to my fifth great-grandfather, Deacon Thomas Sanderson of Whately, a prominent citizen and Revolutionary Lieutenant who found success as a tanner and cordwainer (shoemaker). Eight years after the transaction — following nearly 40 years of unsuccessful petitions by citizens from that irascible southwestern corner to uncooperative Deerfield selectmen — the good deacon was finally able to orchestrate the desired annexation of a sizeable chunk of Deerfield to Whately over hoarse Deerfield objections. It was a brilliantly orchestrated political power play by Sanderson, who had supported victorious Democratic-Republican Gov. Elbridge Gerry against defeated Federalist Christopher Gore in the 1810 election. Gerry was as decisively defeated in Deerfield as he had been victorious in Whately, and he likely did Sanderson and Whately voters a favor historian George Sheldon was still criticizing three generations later in his “History of Deerfield.” Sheldon, from one of the oldest Deerfield families, ripped state legislators for “knocking the town lines about hap-hazard to suit the landowners.”

Where I am next headed could be confusing to readers unfamiliar with local history, but the subject is clear to me and I’ll try to keep it simple. Because of their family connections through Fort No. 4 and Groton, not to mention Parker/Sartwell family links, I have for years suspected that Taylor and my Sanderson ancestor were friends and political allies long before the purchase/sale agreement for Taylor’s property. I have also long suspected that — like outspoken Taylor and many Sanderson brothers and brothers-in-law — Deacon Sanderson was a supporter of Daniel Shays during his brief insurrection against the state’s post-Revolution Federalist elite. My weekend trip to Charlestown solidified this theory and also solved an enduring local mystery surrounding the lineage of Sanderson’s oldest brother Joseph’s wife. It only took a few Internet queries for me to confirm that Joseph’s wife, Lois Fuller, was indeed a daughter of Micah and Lois Fuller listed above as heirs to Charlestown, N.H., Sartwell land. So now all those Joseph Sanderson/Lois Fuller descendants who followed the wild goose chase started by Sheldon’s irresponsible guess that Lois came from Hatfield, and whose searches have ever since borne no fruit, will be pleased to discover that Mayflower descendant Micah Fuller was in fact her father.

Back to Joseph Sanderson, many Shays Rebellion supporters moved to the frontiers of Vermont and New York State after the rebellion was quelled, some sooner than others. There was less structure and no taxes on the frontier. I believe Joseph Sanderson was one of these independent souls. By the turn of the 19th century, he apparently had had enough structure and sold to his farm to son Joseph, packing up his family and settling in Sangerfield, Oneida County, N.Y., where he and wife Lois are buried. Their Deerfield farm stood in Mill River, at or near the old Hillside Dairy farm across from White Birch Campgrounds.

I have over the years fielded many queries about Lois Sanderson’s lineage but have never been able to provide a satisfactory answer. For years that mystery has bothered me like an invisible bayberry thorn under my fingernail. But all it took in the end was a dose of Yankee perseverance and a simple trip to Fort No. 4. And, yes, how about that? Just as I had suspected, old Adonijah Taylor was right in the middle of it all. In fact, it could well be that Joseph and Lois met right there at her aunt and uncle’s home on Indian Hill, today Whately Glen. They came from Groton by way of The Fort at No. 4, a dangerous outpost isolated on our northern frontier, built to intercept Pioneer Valley intruders.

My next trip for little Jordie? How about Ticonderoga, Crown Point and Saratoga. We have deep roots and blood stains there, too.

Power Plays

The powers that be and those who manufacture power form a dangerous alliance, one fish, fowl and bipeds should flee, escaping schemers and investors who may yet breathe their fatal fire, its toxic smoke just a balmy breeze away.

First the fish, still struggling to survive, adapting to the industrial cesspools in which they live. Back in the early ‘90s when I was trying to report the truth about Connecticut River Atlantic salmon restoration, not what I was being told by media-relations lackeys and administrators, I embarked on a research mission that taught me much about Pioneer Valley history. After reading many histories of riverside towns from Northfield to Saybrook, Conn., it was easy to conclude that American shad, not Atlantic salmon, were the prevalent fish harvested by settlers each spring into the 19h century. There is no denying salmon were here, thus the salmon rivers and falls up and down the valley. But salmon were a temporary phenomenon, few in number and a welcome bonus among multiple shad hauled from the river in seines. Those salmon were a product of the Little Ice Age, a cooling period between 1550 and 1820 that pushed the North Atlantic salmon range hundreds of miles south following the Medieval Warming Period. It just so happened that this three-century climatic event conducive to New England salmon migration coincided with European settlement of North America. In fact, the New World was discovered by European fishermen chasing cod, their range also pushed south by colder ocean temperatures.

Although I still track our spring anadromous-fish runs, report on them and continue to cast a pessimistic shadow on their future — especially salmon, but now even shad — I have surrendered my No. 1 gadfly status to Karl Meyer, a former employee turned critic of the power companies operating our fish passageways. Also an outspoken critic of a floundering salmon-restoration project, unlike me, Meyer favors an immediate halt to the doomed program. He says it’s a waste of time and energy for white-knuckled fisheries biologists hanging on for dear life and fat paychecks. While I don’t begrudge them those paychecks, you can’t hide the obvious fact that Connecticut River salmon are following the path of dinosaurs and saber-toothed tigers. Sad but true.

Meyer’s latest criticism is aimed at pathetic shad numbers passing through the fish passageways at Turners Falls and Vernon, Vt. (Can you see the glow?). Both locations, in his opinion, aren’t meeting pledges to maintain optimal fish passage. Meyer got all wound up last year when, like a miracle, shad started passing Turners Falls in record numbers while the Northfield Pumped Storage reservoir was drained dry and water was directed to the spillway pool above the Turners Falls dam, pulling shad up the typically little-used spillway ladder, which seems to be more functional than the other two at Turners Falls. Could it have been a coincidence that shad responded with a record run? Meyer didn’t think so, and he’s getting strong confirmation this spring. With Northfield back to normal and shad being drawn to the less the effective Gatehouse  and Cabot ladders, the power company isn’t even releasing migration numbers through Turners Falls. “Curious, eh?” wrote Meyer last week. “Think they have something to hide?”

Yep, probably, but nowhere near as much as the nuke plant just upstream in Vernon, where the next fish-passage station stands. There, anadromous-fish controversy pales in comparison to issues with the nuclear plant itself. A recent “Rolling Stone” piece by Jeff Goodell (“The Fire Next Time,” May 12) used Vermont Yankee as a poster child of dangerous, aging nuke plants that have been unwisely relicensed by the lapdog Nuclear Regulatory Commission. Lap dog? Well, what do you call a watchdog agency that has over the past two decades approved all 63 relicensing requests it’s reviewed? Goodell warns that a natural catastrophe like the Fukushima earthquake or the Joplin tornado (Can you imagine what would have happened if there had been a nuke plant there?) could be worse than devastating, stating: “A release of just one-10th of the radioactive material at the Vermont Yankee reactor could kill thousands and render much of New England uninhabitable for centuries.”

Yet, we still have many among us who defend this plant if for no better reason than to oppose the “loony radicals” protesting for its closure. Could it be any clearer that power companies cannot be trusted, that they are beholden to shareholders, not the environment? Can any objective observer disagree? It appears that Germany, which announced this week that it will phase out all nuclear power in 10 years, has seen the light. When will it happen here? Not soon enough for me and many others.

Then again, we’ve always got the fellas speeding up and down our rivers and lakes in their fancy bass boats, burying their heads in the Lake Hitchcock gravel and making fun of the “hysterical” no-nukers. But what will these bores have to say when disaster hits? Will they continue laughing, or be the subject of ridicule?

If that day ever arrives, I’d much rather be among the I-told-you-so fools.

Tom Terrific

What a difference a day makes in the game called turkey hunting.

Ask 34-year-old Sunderland hunter and Northampton native Ray Cichy II. He killed what may prove to be Massachusetts’ second-largest gobbler taken since records have been kept. Cichy’s 5-year-old trophy tom, taken last week in Hatfield, registered at just under 85 points, according to the National Wild Turkey Federation scoring system. The bird weighed 24.82 pounds with two beards measuring 11 and 6.5 inches, and spurs 1.250 and 1.1250 inches long. Cichy weighed the bird on certified scales at Stop & Shop in Hadley and left with a printout in hand (Hey, I guess international big-box stores can serve some local purpose). The NWTF score is computed by adding the weight, length of beard doubled and length or spurs multiplied by 10.

But that’s just the end of the tale. How Cichy bagged his bird is what should be interesting to anyone who’s hunted and been frustrated by a boss gobbler’s whims, not to mention those who have not and never will hunt turkeys but have a passing interest in how it’s done.

Actually, Cichy killed his bird like most serious turkey hunters do, starting with preseason scouting, almost a must. After that it was topographical assessment, setting up, calling, altering location, interference by another hunter, patience and geniality, and finally connecting by persevering and, of course, being in the right place at the right time. Isn’t that what it always boils down to?

“When it finally happened,” recalled Cichy, a Verizon lineman speaking last week on his cell phone, “it was easy. Text book.”

Arriving before first light, Cichy set up a solitary hen decoy along the edge of a field, sat against a large tree just inside the woods and waited for gobbles. Then he called the bird, which gobbled several more times before flying out of its roost and landing 15 yards in front of the decoy, immediately going into its last strut. Cichy placed his shotgun bead on the bird’s head and neck, squeezed the trigger, sent the bird into the Curly shuffle and was soon standing triumphantly beside it. His watch read 5:45 a.m. The date was May 3.

“I literally heard the bird fly out of its roost and over my head,” Cichy recalled. “Then it landed right there, 25 yards away, almost too easy.”

On such days, which most veteran turkey hunters have experienced, a man might believe that any fool could call in a monster tom. Well, maybe so, but that was only the way it happened for Cichy on the day of kill. Everything hadn’t worked quite so smoothly prior to that. No sir. The path to this potential all-time state-runner-up gobbler began three days before the April 25 opening day. Cichy had done his homework during those three days day by traveling to the site and observing his bird from a concealed location.

Determined to assess what was happening relative to the mating season, Cichy sat in his spot on the mornings of April 22, 23 and 24 to watch, listen and develop strategy. Because the big gobbler had already gathered a harem of five hens, the hunter knew it wasn’t necessarily going to be an easy task to kill it. Gobblers roost near their harems and jealously guard them, typically waiting for the hens to fly out of their tree or trees at first light before flying down to join them, at which point it can be quite difficult to entice the tom away with the plaintive call of an outside suitor. This is especially true right off, before the big boy has tended to his ladies and they have wandered off to set on their nests. And, indeed, it didn’t take long for this very scenario to confront Cichy, immediately complicating matters and necessitating Plan 2.

On opening morning, Cichy said he had the big boss man “all fired up” on and off the roost, but the bird was content to follow its seductive harem down into the open field at first light, then proceeded to trail them away from Cichy’s calls. Undeterred, Cichy waited for the birds to get out of sight, retrieved his decoys (two hens and a jake) and departed, determined to return the next day and adjust his setup. When he did that the next morning, everything was working to perfection, the birds moving in his direction, before another hunter cut him off, which in turkey-hunting jargon means got between him and the birds he was calling, blowing up what likely would have been a successful hunt. Frustrated, Cichy picked up his decoys, spoke in passing to the intruder who claimed to be unaware of his presence (that’s what they all say), and departed, determined to return. But the fact was that his troubles were just beginning.

Day 3 found Cichy at his spot before first light and the forest was silent, not so much as a gobble. No sightings, either. Damn, he thought before leaving, that gobbler must have been onto him after the previous day’s commotion. But when he returned to the scene the next morning, sure enough, more gobbles preceding five hen fly-downs with the tom right behind them, and all six birds again headed away from Cichy. He surmised they must be wise to him and decided to give them a break by taking Friday off and returning Saturday morning, which ultimately proved to be his shortest hunt of the season. With two unfamiliar vehicles parked along the road, obviously weekend warriors, he didn’t even bother stopping, just slowed down a bit, pondered his next move and went home. Hopefully, Monday would be different.

Getting itchy midday Sunday, a curious Cichy took a ride to his site at around 4 p.m. and spotted the big boy out in the field with a hen, just one. Things were looking up. But then he took ill overnight and decided to sit out Monday morning. Coughing and sniffles are never good turkey-hunting companions. Still, he went out that evening to roost the tom and was happy to find it alone. He lingered long enough to hear the bird fly up into its roost, where he could see it “bouncing around in the branches” until dark. He left feeling confident that the next day could be productive, which turned out to be prophetic.

Before daybreak, Cichy sneaked in as close as he dared to the roosted tom and furtively put out one hen decoy before taking a comfortable seat against a big tree. The rest is history. The Hatfield slammer was dead before 6 a.m., but not before it had planted its seed for posterity, now likely being set upon by the harem hens that had abandoned their mate for its final roost.

Soon that big boy’s progeny will be trailing their mothers through hot bottomland hayfields, jumping up to devour bugs and berries and whatever. If any of those birds reach the ripe old age of 5, as few do, they’ll probably resemble their trophy dad; and maybe, just maybe, one of them will become future newspaper fodder.

Wetland Wonders

I wasn’t taking notes, can’t recall whether is was cloudy or clear, dry or wet, but do remember well how it all unfolded.

I was down at Sunken Meadow, walking the dog, spring sprung, observing trees and buds and ferns and skunk cabbage and whatever else interested me, even watched bluebirds, a male and a female, perched like Christmas-tree crowns atop young, adjacent pines as I enjoyed the day and a robust, snappy walk around the perimeter.

About halfway around my loop, on the south end of the field where a beaver pond spills out into the edge of the meadow, I noticed Buddy acting curious and cautious, nose high, ears alert, looking down at something just outside of the greening tangle of multiflora rose along the border. Whatever it was, he respected it, or at least wasn’t sure what he was dealing with, thus the timid approach. He semi-circled but wouldn’t move in as I quickened my step.

When I got to within an underhand toss, I could see what looked like a rock or bag or maybe a chunk of wood in the low, sparse, brown brush. Exactly what it was I could not decipher. Then, when I got closer, I could see we were dealing with a large snapping turtle, as round as my arms spread out to the max and joined at the hands out in front of my torso, definitely nothing to pester. The big, prehistoric critter wasn’t shy, either. No sir. It was standing rigid on all fours in an obvious aggressive pose, tail, head and neck straight out like a German shorthair on point, only ornerier.

I believe it was Buddy’s first encounter with a snapping turtle, and instinct wisely kept him away. The turtle must have smelled dangerous, which, if so, was a good thing, according to a friend I later told about the standoff. “A big snapper could do a job on a dog,” he informed me. He wasn’t telling me anything I didn’t know.

“Leave it,” I said to Buddy in a non-threatening tone, and he seemed almost relieved as he left it and continued on his merry way, trotting joyfully to the west bank of the Green River, not once turning back or even suggesting it. He must have been happy to be done with the armored beast after accurately reading its unfriendly body language, if not dangerous scent, not alluring pheromones by any stretch of the imagination.

My guess is that it was a female snapper looking for a place to bury its eggs, but I haven’t spent any time researching it. It may be a little early for turtle egg-laying. Maybe not. I really don’t know. But something was going on, and apparently that snapper wasn’t the only one out and about that day. I made that discovery the next morning while walking the same meadow and happening upon two friendly fellas grinding Christmas-tree stumps 100 yards from where I had seen the pugnacious turtle. When I stopped to chat and, pointing, shared the story with them, the taller of the two was interested. The previous day, maybe 300 yards west of where my turtle had stood, he had seen another large snapper crossing the paved road. A woman was on the scene, her car parked side of the road as she directed traffic to protect the turtle. She stuck around until the creature crossed the road, then drove off. Later that day, apparently trying to return to the beaver pond it had exited, the turtle was killed by a car, presumably minus the eggs it had laid in the sandy brook-side soil off the east side of the road.

In the weeks to come, many little turtles will probably hatch from that secluded site to replace their dead mother, which never made it home to her beaver pond, likely sparing at least a few of the goslings soon to hatch from a visible Canada goose nest atop a beaver hut. Fishermen tell of watching newborn goslings swim behind their mother and seeing one or two disappear like bobbers on a fish strike when quickly pulled under and devoured by hungry snapping turtles.

Nature’s way: life and death in a bottomland beaver bog, always wildlife rich.

Roundabout Deer, Trout

Eli Terry just struck noon from its dining-room shelf and here I sit, fresh off a few hours of procrastination, still waiting for that final stocking report — the most important one, of course.

Actually, I guess I’m stretching it a bit to call my morning activity procrastination. Reading is seldom that mindless, especially reading with a purpose, not just to kill time or escape reality, which would indeed qualify as that dirty P word we can all occasionally succumb to. Fact is I’m still studying naughty American novelist Henry Miller (1891-1980), am nearly finished with Robert Ferguson’s biography, fascinating stuff. Miller’s novels were banned here and in England for the high crimes of blasphemy, profanity and unpopular truths, never welcomed by the Chamber of Commerce, clergy or high school administrators. Yes, Miller — auto-didactic to boot (the shame of it) — was banned in Boston and New York, would likely have been lynched from a short, stout scrub oak in Texas or Alabama if the high and mighty down there could have gotten their hands on him. And to think my captivating little research project got started with late West Whately gadfly publisher Jimmy Cooney, that irascible pacifist and card-carrying socialist I stumbled upon many years ago as an unapologetic, hormone-driven teen on Poplar Hill.

Truth be told, I still refuse to say I’m sorry for discovering such “corrupting” influences all on my own. In fact, thank the forest gods I was happenstance exposed to free spirits like Cooney and Marshall Smith, dangerous subversives to police chiefs and Boy Scout leaders, but in fact no scarier than sparkling water bubbling from a Guinea Gulch spring. I say when you find such a wellspring you best drop to your knees, cup your hands and savor it like the fountain of youth. You’ll find refreshing, nourishing lessons unattainable in a stifling classroom where Old Glory and Christ’s cross hang for all to worship. Yes, Cooney and his radical retinue indirectly led me off the beaten path to many exciting places, some taboo in the mainstream press, and I think I’m a better man for it.

But, anyway, back to the task at hand, that of cranking out a weekly column, this one revisiting a now clarified tale from last week before moving to the mundane, weekly spring stocking report so eagerly awaited by the truck-following rabble. Isn’t that what newspapers are for? The rabble? Maybe. If so, must I feed this hungry crowd of discriminating big-box taste? Should I feel guilty or proud? You be the judge.

But, again, let us not digress. First the clarification, which takes us back to last week’s story about recent coyote carnage in my Greenfield neighborhood, a tale I knew was true but could not confirm. Well, that little lead into my column smoked out the facts in a jiffy. The phone message arrived at my home shortly after 9 a.m. Friday while I was down at Sunken Meadow walking the dog and searching the marshy woods along the perimeter for erect, leftover, dark-brown ostrich ferns that point a man toward tight spring fiddleheads, a tasty treat I annually enjoy — steamed, then smothered in butter with Parmesan cheese; excellent if you combine them with tortellini, bowtie noodles will do.

Enough of that. Back to the deer story I keep getting distracted from. As I predicted, I didn’t have all my facts straight, just enough rumor to get my point across: that deer can be vulnerable to our most efficient predators even long after deep, tiring snow has disappeared from the landscape. To refresh your memory, I reported that a pregnant doe had been savagely killed in the backyard of a thickly settled neighborhood near my home, and that the coyotes had left behind an intact fetus. Because I knew coyotes typically focus first on the entrails when devouring a fresh deer kill, I suspected they had eaten one twin fetus and left the other for later. Well, I had it wrong. There was no fawn visible, just a dead doe with prominent nipples, its carcass left virtually intact minus its guts and internal organs. Apparently, the coyotes had eaten the unborn and left the adult for later consumption.

Interestingly, the coyotes used a black chain-link fence for assistance. They had chased the pregnant doe through a wetland depression along a brook, and when the deer tried to circle back through an unfamiliar backyard, it ran flush into the fence, buckling a sturdy vertical post near its death bed. The homeowners, Fred Steiner and family of Meadow Lane, were alerted to the kill by the predawn barking of their dog. They then spotted the pathetic prostrate animal after first light, not a pretty sight. So, that is the rest of the story. Eat your heart out, Paul Harvey. Glad to finally find the facts.

So, now, on to trout stocking, starting with a call from old pal Peter Mallett, brainchild of the Millers River Fishermen’s Association (MRFA), which generously supplements state stocking on the Millers River and elsewhere in eastern Franklin County. This year Mallet and friends will stock more than 400 pounds of rainbow and brook trout from Plymouth’s Gilbert Hatchery. Many of the trout will be in the 16- to 18-inch category, with an added bonus of several four pounders. Mallet claims the Gilbert Hatchery was first owned by the clipper ship captain who was responsible for introducing brown trout to America. The good captain used to transport brown-trout eggs across the Atlantic on blocks of ice, then hatch, raise and stock them in eastern Massachusetts and beyond. Today, Gilbert’s rainbows are distinctive “Donovan rainbow trout,” with brilliant coloration differentiating them from the duller state-stocked fish, according to Mallett.

MRFA has scheduled three consecutive 11 a.m. Saturday kids’-stocking days, the first this week, when people will assemble in the Birch Hill Dam parking lot in South Royalston. Youths will assist with the stocking, then have free reign to fish afterward. The subsequent kids’ stocking dates and sites are: May 7 at Alan Rich Park in Athol, and May 14 at the Orange Sewage Treatment Plant off Route 2A in Orange.

As for the state-stocking schedule, the Western District will again hit the upper Deerfield River in Florida, Charlemont and Buckland, while doing Cold River in Florida and Charlemont and North Pond in Florida as well. Sadly, nothing to report on the Valley District stocking destinations. First time in years, so cut them a break. They were busy stocking Wednesday, the office assistant out sick for her third day. I waited all day for the list, phoned twice, no luck. Sorry, fellas. I have to believe it’s time for the Green and North rivers to get some fish after a long drought. No guarantees. Just a hunch. Educated guess. It’s almost May. Way overdue.

Off I go.

Twin Killing?

A sighting, speculation and a rumor: that’s all I’ve got. Guess it’ll have to do.

First the sighting — two deer, likely does, one larger than the other. I spotted them after 7 Saturday morning. They were feeding in the fresh green stubble of a spring straw field as I took a hard right toward the gate to Sunken Meadow. There they stood like statues, gray-brown in the pale morning light, frozen and totally alert to my presence. When I pulled up short of the gate, grabbed the key and exited the vehicle, the deer bounded off toward the tree line, white tails pointing to the heavens, a pretty sight.

Hmmm? Interesting. Couldn’t imagine they weren’t the same deer I had watched there all through the summer and fall last year. Problem was there had been three of them, a doe and twin fawns, which I watched catch up in size to their mother as the year progressed. Maybe someone had killed the other fawn, I thought, in the road or hunting. Or maybe it was there but off to the side along the tree line and I just didn’t see it. Doubtful. I thought there were only two.

Anyway, I moved along, driving my truck down into the lower level, letting Buddy out and taking my regular route, not really giving much further thought to the deer. Yeah, of course I looked up along the wooded lip several times as I walked the first leg of my trek, just trying to pick them out standing motionless and observing us, but no luck. If they were there, I didn’t see them. But the story got far more interesting after I returned home and went to the roadside mailbox an hour or two later.

As I walked to fetch the mail, my neighbor called my name from across the road. She was walking toward me and obviously wanted to talk. So I crossed the road and she told me about carnage in the neighborhood, an overnight coyote deer-kill in a backyard of a cluster of homes. The wife of a cop, I trusted her information, still do.

“The animal-control officer got a call and investigated,” she said. “He arrived on the scene and found the doe torn to shreds with an unborn fawn pretty much intact.”

Apparently, the homeowners heard something going on but couldn’t see what had happened until daybreak. Then they saw the dead deer lying near their house, the yard bordered on the north by a wetland hollow. My neighbor didn’t like what she had heard, was concerned about her dogs, her horse. “Have you seen coyotes in your yard?” she asked.No. I had never seen a coyote on my property but my son once had, five or six of them by the flower bed in the full midnight moonlight. He was concerned about his favorite tiger cat, Big Boy, who survived that late-night canine visit. Furthermore, I knew of no coyote problems around my neighbor’s hen house, which is surprising, given the amount of close coyote talk I routinely hear around my place year around. “They’re pretty elusive,” I told her, “very good at lurking along the edges and staying out of sight.”

Curious, I tried to track down further information about the incident but came up empty. So I cannot claim to have every detail precisely as it happened. I tried, making several fruitless trips to the home where the kill reportedly occurred, but couldn’t get an answer to the doorbell with many cars in the yard. Then, after learning the homeowners’ names, I left a phone message and  killed time reading a field guide to ferns, portable phone within reach. No return call. Determined to get the story, I called the number twice from work and got the answering machine. Must have had caller ID. Apparently the people didn’t want any publicity. I wouldn’t have used their names or address if they didn’t want me to. It’s easy to get around superfluous details like that with a story like this. It’s the tale that’s relevant, not necessarily names and addresses. To say it happened in the Greenfield Meadows would have been good enough for me. Oh well. You’ll just have to take it for what it is: a story based on fact that is generally accurate.

Of course, the same could be said of my speculation that the dead doe was the missing twin from my Saturday sighting. There’s no way of knowing that, either. I can’t even say those deer were the ones I knew. Still, given what I later learned and the way the scenario developed, my hunch is that those were the same deer minus a pre-dawn coyote-kill. At least it makes a lot of sense to me.

Imagine that. No snow or cold or injury to weaken the deer; just a pregnant doe in her vulnerable last trimester, and still no match for a coyote pack. Who knows? Maybe that doe was carrying twin fawns and there was only one left. Stuffed from a tasty meal, the coyotes probably intended to return for fetid fetus cutlets.

Touching The Bases

Overnight rain had a remarkable effect on my yard Wednesday, lifting my spirits on a gray, dreary April morning. Spring can do that to a man, even one t’other side of his peak.

What immediately drew my attention on the way out to the kennel was a lilac bush along the western perimeter of my property. Barren with no hint of green Tuesday — bingo! — it was sporting vivacious, quarter-inch, green buds Wednesday. No exaggeration! Overnight. No sun. Chalk it up to the power of spring rain: lawn greening as though a watercolorist perched on a maple bough mischievously splashed blotches here and there with a flick of his saturated brush; bright yellow daffodils against the house drooping, fists clenched, a day after standing straight as a preacher in bright sun. I can only hope their lethargy had nothing to do with poison Fukushima rain. What a dreadful disaster, one we’re hearing not nearly enough about. Loony Charlie Sheen and Sarah Palin are much more important, right? So are tightwads John Boehner and Eric Cantor, gleaming their pompous air of self-importance and deceit. Then, even when the news does bemoan those haywire Japanese reactors, it’s played up as nothing to worry about. They’d have you believe last week’s three-million-gallon Pacific dump was no worse than a drunken hiker emptying his bladder into a Quabbin feeder stream. Don’t buy it. It’s misinformation aimed at the ignorant. Cheap “news.”

But let us not digress … as my flowers bloom and bushes bud, backyard Hinsdale Brook is roaring with youthful enthusiasm, and so is the swollen Green River it feeds a short bit downstream. Speaking of which, you should have heard the peepers in riverside Sunken Meadow Monday afternoon. The sound was new, overwhelming and encompassing, like you were trapped in a small, breathless chamber with billions of the chirpy little buggers belching. I took a quick ramble down there with the dogs Wednesday morning and not a peep. What a difference a day or two makes. It was still warm but soggy, a steady rain falling. I stayed just long enough to stretch my legs, wet my shoulders and observe the surging river — Tiger Lily plump with pups, due anytime, waddling along; Buddy sprinting, leaping, hopelessly infected with joie de vivre. I think Lily will have a big litter. Fun. Perfect time of year for puppies.

Honestly, I didn’t know young Buddy had it in him, the rascal. Hey, sometimes a young lad can surprise you. Well, I guess those ladies I hear pitching their cougarlife.com website late nights between sports talk on WFAN-New York wouldn’t be surprised. They have faith in young pups. We’re not talking here about those extinct Eastern cougars. No sir. These radio cougars appear to be thriving in Eastern metropolitan areas; same ferocious growl, gentler bite.

Ooops! That email I’ve been awaiting finally arrived. I just heard the beep. Back to the task at hand, that of trout stocking and tidbits. Then back to the parlor La-Z-Boy, where I’ll raise the footrest high, flip off my Birkenstocks and resume a captivating study of American novelist Henry Miller; he and Anais Nin, their twisted, tangled labyrinth of lies and secrets. Or was it a nest? Doesn’t matter. Fact is they were fascinating artists — blasphemous, erotic sinners whose books were for many years banned in this country and England. Imagine that! George Orwell called Miller the only living writer of the English language worth reading, and his books were banned where English is spoken. What makes Miller and Nin even more interesting from my perspective is their connection to a Whately man I once knew from afar. Question is, why did it take me so long to discover these literary icons?

Well, I guess if you’re inquisitive and open-minded, you’ll find important stuff sooner or later, even if you were a rebel who dismissed school as a waste of time when you could have been spoon-fed by some droning, upright pedant, just another 200-pound sleeping pill so common in education.

I guess I didn’t miss much. I have always found it more meaningful to solve my own mysteries.

Enough!

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