Another Cougar

Uh-oh, here we go again. Buckle your chinstraps. Fasten your seat belts. Looks like another flurry of cougar sightings — four legs, distinctive long tail — the latest one close to home.

But, first, a little background. This most recent surge began quite inauspiciously more than a month ago, when an envelope on my Recorder desk postmarked White River Junction, Vt., brought an anonymous note accompanied by a Lancaster, N.H., newspaper clipping about a cougar sighting. I publicized this sighting by a trained naturalist in a rare second column that ran “inside” on July 5, and figured I’d leave it at that. But the story didn’t end there. No sir. In fact, that’s where it all started. Go figure.

Last week, more cougars, beginning with a phone call at work from a neighbor whose brother had on the late-afternoon of July 30 seen one cross the road in front of his vehicle on Route 112 in Ashfield. He promised to provide a detailed email account and did so the next day, when his message fell into my spam filter and languished overnight. By the time I read his story the next morning, I had already explored an email link to a Michigan television news segment about a 17th confirmed cougar sighting in that state, this one captured on a hunter’s trail camera. I worked both sightings into last week’s column without devoting a lot of space, and now, you guessed it, two more this week — one from long ago, reported by reader Ned James, who saw it near his Ashfield home, the other Sunday by a woman living on Adams Road in Greenfield. The Greenfield witness is not a Recorder subscriber, hadn’t the faintest idea that I had ever written anything about local cougar sightings, was unaware of the road-killed big cat last year on a southern Connecticut highway, and hesitated even to share with her neighbors what she had seen for fear that they’d think she was nuts.

“To be honest, I was starting to question myself, thinking maybe my mind was playing games with me and I ought to visit a shrink,” said 67-year-old registered nurse Lorraine (Hagerty) Blanchard. “When I finally got the nerve to tell my neighbors, I said, ‘It couldn’t have been a bobcat. They’re not that big and they don’t have long tails.’”

The neighbor’s wife suggested she call The Recorder, said there was a reporter there who’d written of many cougar sightings. So Blanchard called the newsroom Tuesday morning, the administrative assistant took the information and her phone number, emailed them to me and I dialed the woman’s number before noon. Ms. Blanchard screened the call on her answering machine and picked up when I identified myself in a message. We proceeded to chat for about an hour. She said absolutely nothing to draw suspicion or dissuade me from going public with her sighting. So, here it is.

It was Sunday afternoon, about 4:30, and Ms. Blanchard had just returned home. Hot and muggy, she put on her bathing suit and stepped out onto the deck overlooking the pool and her backyard, bordered by woods 100 to 200 feet away. There, along the wood line, sat the cat, sitting straight up like a dog. She got a good side profile of the beast from the rear, said it towered over a three-foot-high birdhouse standing on a post within five feet. The animal appeared to be all brown, its long tail wrapped around to the front. Soon her pet cat, Jingles, came running nervously toward her. Then an unfamiliar gray cat scooted off, also visibly nervous. Blanchard doesn’t think the wildcat knew it was under observation but it soon stood up and slowly ambled into the woods, “not running, just walking like a cat. It was huge, the shoulders powerful, a beautiful animal, sleek, graceful, gorgeous. I want to go to the library, find a book and learn more about these animals. I didn’t know we had anything like that around here. I thought they were out west. I’d only seem them on National Geographic TV. What a beautiful animal.”

Blanchard was able to gauge the animal’s size because it was sitting between the birdhouse and her backyard shed. “I’d guess it was four or five feet tall, sitting up, from its butt to the top of its ears,” she said. “When it got into the woods, it turned its head back and yawned. Then I saw it moving through the trees and it disappeared. That’s when I went to my neighbors’ house. I described what I had seen and they said it sounded like a cougar. I looked it up in the dictionary and knew that’s what I had seen.”

When informed that state and federal wildlife experts have in the past accused those who’ve reported such sightings of mistaking large domestic cats for cougars because of deceiving light conditions, she laughed and without hesitation said, “Why would they say such a thingt? My cat weighs 18 pounds; it would look like an ant compared to what I saw.”

Blanchard’s description of the sitting cougar was strikingly similar to a tale told me in the gym by Ernie Snow of Bernardston Road in Greenfield. As I recall, Snow spotted his big cat sitting under his backyard apple tree. He said he watched it out the window for some time before it rose to all fours and walked off, much the way Blanchard described it, all power and grace, a beautiful sight to behold. When I told Snow I had reported a cougar sighting at neighboring Emerson Farm, he knew, said he had read it in the paper and almost called, but didn’t; which underscores the possibility of many similar local sightings that go unreported.

How can anyone question sightings like Blanchard’s or Snow’s? I believe the day is approaching when there will be no denials, just warnings to give the beasts space and let them pass. But first wildlife officials must stop dismissing cougar sightings as LSD flashbacks and misidentified kitty cats, and admit they’re on the comeback trail to the reforested Northeast.

Which reminds me: Do you suppose all the wildfires ravaging the Wild West could be speeding cougars’ eastward migration? They have to flee somewhere. Why not the wild Great Lakes country and on to the dense, craggy Adirondack, Green and White mountain ranges? They’ve been there before, appear to be coming back.

Full-Moon Ramble

Blame that waxing Sturgeon Moon; it cleared the air, brightened the stars and sharpened my perspective, a cool, gentle midnight breeze through the bedside window whisking away the dust and cobwebs, a tiny drop of  grease setting the cranial wheels free for silent pillow probes. Sleep? Hell no. Not on moonlit nights.

So here I sit, the next day, reflecting a few weeks back to a salient scene, the image vivid. It’s morning, the sun low. Grandson Jordi and I are walking up the short hill to a familiar galvanized gate. It’s been a good walk, great conversation, a refreshing swim, to boot. We’re jabbering about this and that, nearing the not-yet-visible truck. Our journey has taken us two-thirds around the perimeter of Sunken Meadow to a short, splashy frolic with two rambunctious gun dogs down the Green River to a chest-deep, corner swimming hole, in fishing jargon, what I call a run. There I had demonstrated the breast stroke and frog kick, sidestroke and scissors kick, Jordi, self-conscious, trying to please, his progress my reward. I’m no teacher but can get by.

What I remember most about that short uphill trek to the hayfield is a discomforting thought that jostled me. How do you tell a bright, innocent young boy who’s experienced the loss of his dad that, because of my generation, my father’s and lingering, infectious greed, it may already be too late for him to escape the horrors of radical climate change, maybe even the stench of death from starvation or disease borne from filthy drinking water? Don’t tell anyone, but it’s already happening in the Third World. Shhhhhhh. Why alarm folks? Out of sight, out of mind … for now.

I let the unpleasant thought pass unspoken; tell him instead how nice it is to have his company on my daily walks, typically solitary. I do enjoy companionship. He provides someone to talk to, a nice change, though I can’t say I object to walking alone. Oftentimes, I explain, I’ll spot something, even a common sight, that stirs my creative juices and squirts them into a steep gorge which flows to a column. He looks at me, bemused, struggling to grasp a difficult concept for anyone just getting a faint whiff of literacy’s flowered periphery. He understands better when I explain how witnessing natural phenomena can stimulate thoughts or emotions about something from the past, maybe even the present or future, potentially unleash a roaring torrent that riles from mucky sediment poignant riffs later captured in print. Some carry a notepad to capture profound thoughts and catchy phrases. Not me. I’m usually capable of recreating the spark that burst into flames. Often the rekindled thoughts spiral even deeper into an ominous, swirling abyss of introspection I never fear.

Jordi just looks up with those sparkling, pensive amber eyes and says, “Oh,” which suggests to me that he gets my drift — well, as much as any 6-year-old could, I guess. I’m confident he’ll better understand my idiosyncrasies as the years pass. I will continue leading him to offbeat exploration till the day I depart this place for another, better or worse, wherever and whenever it may be, leaving him to cut his own path, hopefully trimming low-hanging obstructions with my old machete.

Driving out to the road, the landowner is working in his garden. I stop and slide down the window to chat. Jordi can’t resist interrupting: “Did you tell him about that crow, Grampy?” The query raps the man’s funny bone dead center. My column that day had mentioned the defiant crow perched alone atop a tomato stake, not the least bit afraid of the threatening, owl-eyed, scarecrow beach balls dangling from strings, standing sentry. I had written that Jordi was amused by that lonely crow’s open defiance, and the man had obviously read it. That’s why he laughed out loud and said, “Yeah, we saw it, too. My wife said, ‘Isn’t it funny how even some crows seem to have a mind of their own?’” I didn’t share with him my spontaneous thought about how many times I myself had chosen such a perch, sharpshooter taking aim and sending a|bullet whizzing past my left ear, me startled, jumping up, chuckling and flying off to another precarious perch down the road. Ah, yes, the story of my life. Maybe Jordi will make it easier on himself. Maybe not. Either way, I’ll be there for him, a loyal surrogate.

Just the thought of this tugs me by the hand like a sleepy lover toward another summertime ramble, this one leading to a new book by Saratoga, N.Y., environmental gloom-and-doomer James Howard Kunstler, before traipsing off to an old book written by preeminent Harvard historian Bernard Bailyn, then a little cougar talk and, well, whatever else leaps with a mischievous grin onto this wayward, moonlit path. Oh, the perilous swings these full-moon rambles can take with a two-fingered keyboard Cancer hammering away.

First, cougars, that is a late-afternoon Monday sighting on Route 112 in Ashfield, near Bug Hill Road. The witness, a southern New Hampshire Verizon lineman living temporarily with his brother in my Greenfield Meadows neighborhood, got a good look at the long-tailed beast; it crossed the road less than 100 feet in front of him and stopped. He described the sighting as unmistakable, though the cat was a bit on the small side, in the 60-to-80-pound range, half-again as big as his brother’s dog. There have been many sightings over the years in that general vicinity, say between Plainfield and West Whately, wild country indeed, perfect for catamounts. And get this: Wednesday morning in my inbox was a message with an Internet link to a news story about the 17th confirmed Michigan cougar sighting in recent years. I challenge anyone to claim a cougar couldn’t easily make its way here from Michigan through Upstate New York. Puh-leeze!

As for Kunstler’s new book, “Too Much Magic: Wishful Thinking, Technology, and the Fate of a Nation,” it was brought to my attention by a loyal reader who saw last week’s mention of Bill McKibben’s scary “Rolling Stone” piece on global warming. McKibben claims our planet is heating much quicker than the mainstream media and government want us to believe. Well, Kunstler heaps doom and destruction upon McKibben’s dire warning, proclaiming that by the time the turds hit the turbines, advanced technology will not save us. I’m not sure what I believe, have always taken Kunstler with a bittersweet teaspoon of caution but I do not dismiss his theory anymore than I accept the mainstream “objective” garbage. I do fear we’re headed for disaster, though, if not already there with extended drought, three-digit Heartland temperatures and raging Western wildfires. Nothing to lose sleep over, I guess. Ask Mitt Romney, who’s loudly stumping for the drill-baby-drill Keystone Pipeline. American voters may just elect our former governor and his voodoo Bain Capital magic. The election promises to be close, and quite scary. Anyone who believes Romney gives a hoot about you and me is delusional. He couldn’t care less about  working slobs. And, no matter how many times partisan Republicans implore that both parties are controlled by the same corporations and big money, remember this: Kunstler and McKibben both voted for Obama the last time and will do so again, while the Koch brothers and their diabolical cronies funnel major money to the GOP and random “Blue-Dog” Democrats willing to turn their backs as industry poisons the globe.

Which provides a nice segue to Bailyn, whose 1969 classic, “The Ideological Origins of the American Revolution,” is still considered the best analysis of the Colonial political landscape leading up to the Revolution. I have read much by Bailyn and can’t say I find him a pleasurable read, but he does know the socio/political Revolutionary nuances as well as anyone, perhaps better. After many times considering “Ideological Origins” but backing off at the steep online price of non-library hardcovers in acceptable condition, I finally found a pristine paperback at Montague Bookmill, bought it cheap and blew right through it. Having read many scholars’ takes on the genesis of the American Revolution, all of them seem consistent on one unstated point: America is today what England was in 1776. “Radical” British Whigs were being jailed, the stench of government corruption was eye-watering, and elections were blatantly being bought. Whigs crying for change and pointing to the fall of the Roman Empire were shouted down by cozy conservative insiders who called their critics traitors.

Well, fellas, I hate to say it but those Whigs, men like Burke and Wilkes, got the last, told-you-so chortle when American rebels expelled the British oppressors and loyalist lackeys, won independence and started anew. Hey, that reminds me: Has anyone ever figured out exactly what happened to Mayan civilization? Just wondering.

Good night, moon

Crossroads

Curiosity is a stiletto, needle-point, both edges razor sharp, lethal in the wrong hands, yet also a stimulating path to discovery — just one more double-edged sword from which I have never cowered. In fact, I slide it under my belt to tickle my grandsons’ fancy, maybe even that of their children if ever so fortunate. Stifle a child’s curiosity and you ought to be charged with abuse. At least, that’s my view, televangelist, Sunday School teacher and chief of police be damned.

What’s got me thinking this week is the lawn, a rare three weeks without mowing. Having performed the chore for nearly 50 years in this fertile valley, I know it has never before happened in my lifetime. So, of course, my wheels are spinning to a shrill, piercing scream, on my walks, in my rambles, when random thoughts distract even the most gripping reads.

Yeah, I know, I can feel readers’ angst already: “Uh-oh,” they’re pondering, “where’s he going with this?” And I suppose there are a many turns I could take on a subject like curiosity, starting with that threadbare axiom about the cat and the pleasant outcome that brought about its reincarnation. But, no, far too familiar. What’s bugging me as I sit here today, contemplating a drought interrupted by our first puddles in weeks, followed by inspiring Wednesday-morning air, is the reading of Bill McKibben’s troubling “Rolling Stone” magazine piece titled “The Reckoning,” on global warming. When will people finally “get it” and expel the diabolical, manipulative deniers from our political landscape? I’m not optimistic it’ll happen anytime soon.

According to McKibben, for many years the lonely canary in a rickety, old, backwoods coal mine posted “No Trespassing,” it may already be too late. He lays out some simple, defeatist math concerning U.S. fossil fuels already in storage for intended use. He says if it’s all used, we’re freakin’ cooked, literally. So stop at the newsstand and pick up a copy, fresh cougar bait on the cover, it’ll tell you all you need to know and plenty you’d probably rather not know about the state we’re in, thanks to greedy energy companies and the clever wordsmiths and unethical scientists they employ to mislead the clueless flock. It’s criminal. If you want more, go to 350.org and sign up for email alerts, just so that the crisis threatening the world as we know it stays in plain view. A scholar from the beautiful Champlain Valley college town of Middlebury, Vt. — where I found myself sitting on the common Sunday afternoon — McKibben is from the neighborhood and well worth heeding.

Problem is that McKibben does most of his preaching to the choir, can’t seem to reach lazy mainstream-news hounds who continue to get their daily fix about the coast-to-coast drought ravaging our land, the related wildfires scorching the parched West, without even a faint whiff of the crucial question hovering over the whole crisis: Why? Gee, do you suppose it could have anything to do with the millions of gallons of oil sludge circulating along the deep, dark ocean floor somewhere in the Atlantic following the disastrous 2010 BP Gulf spill? How about Fukushima? Could the poisonous radiation belched into to the atmosphere and puked into the ocean be even partially to blame for this record heat and drought? Sadly, if you’re looking for a culpability analysis, you won’t find it on the nightly news or morning paper. No sir. If it’s the truth you seek, you must search alternative sources, be they cutting-edge blogs or other online news sources, or secondary publications like “Mother Jones,” “The Nation,” “Rolling Stone” or “Orion,” that literary gem few know of. If you can believe it, even Al Jazeera covered the Gulf spill and Fukushima back in the day better than Associated Press, and it’s not like Arabs have no energy interests to protect.

It reminds me of the old days, before the Internet and 24/7 cable news stations, when you had to read “Ramparts” or I.F. Stone or, again, “Rolling Stone,” if you wanted to know what was going on in Vietnam, at Kent State or on the city streets of San Francisco, LA and Chicago. It’s the same, tired old story today, with the courts, the cops and the mainstream press fighting hard to protect the status quo while lonely, altruistic voices like McKibben sound Paul Revere’s alarm to deaf ears of loyalist “sheeple” waving their flags made in Taiwan, singing praise of “true patriots” like Bill O’Reilly and Sean Hanitty, prime-time gasbags for the Rupert Murdoch/Roger Ailes propaganda machine. Yes indeed, history repeats itself and will likely continue doing so until it all comes to a hot, fiery grand finale, by which time it’ll be pointless even to say, “I told you so.”

Which I guess brings us right back where we started, to the concept of basic human curiosity. Those who are curious today can find answers easier than back in the Sixties and early Seventies. Problem is that intellectual and philosophical curiosity have been suffocated in debt, which leaves middle-class college graduates with no freedom to explore or travel or figure out precisely who they are before settling down to own a home, raise a family and punch the clock; better still, blast away with an assault rifle at a movie theater. There’s just no time for floating and free thinking these days, only immense pressure to quickly plug into a “good job,” which these days translates to one that pays well, not necessarily makes you happy. What we end up with is a flock of expressionless automatons, what Orwell and Upton Sinclair and many others called wage slaves, even if some of the jobs do bring a livable wage and financial security, albeit for a job you either hate or, to perform it, must hang your conscience on the hallway coat rack.

No matter what McKibben and others of his honorable ilk say, I sense I’m going to miss the day of reckoning. Yeah, I know the salmon and the Pocumtucks have already vanished, and soon Franklin County sugarbush will follow the same tragic path. I truly believe I will live to see the day when the nostalgic sight of steaming springtime sugar shacks will require a drive north. It’s an image that makes me think of my grandsons. I’m convinced they’ll taste global-warming horror. For that I feel diluted guilt and a pure rage, because we could have prevented it with curiosity, activism and rejection of capitalist greed that benefits few and leaves the rest of us sucking filthy wind the press assures us meets acceptable government health standards, whatever that means.

All I know is that Mother Earth has taken ill, greed’s to blame and the culprits would fight another civil war to prevent change. Activists tried to foster change in the Sixties, got squashed and are now following our salmon and indigenous tribesmen to a lonely place called Oblivion. Just bang a hard right at the four-corners to Doom, and drill, Baby, drill.

Different Strokes

Call it changing on the fly.

What I really wanted to do today, sitting here in my customary Wednesday chair at a most unusual time, was compose a sad song, my personal lament for the end of the Connecticut River salmon-restoration program we’ve followed for two generations. No matter how hard they tried — and indeed they gave it their best (well, except for the power companies exploiting public resources for private gain) — they just couldn’t bring Atlantic salmon back to the Connecticut River in quantities justifying the expense. It finally came down to simple math at a time when the government is counting pennies to haul us from the abyss opened by Wall Street criminals who these days are likely sunbathing on calm seas, oblivious to the drought, sipping noontime Tangueray martinis and reading “The Journal” on private yachts somewhere between Cape Cod and the Bahamas. Yes, I’m sure they’re enjoying their eight-week summer sabbaticals from investment firms sinisterly afloat on taxpayers’ backs.

Unfortunately, my salmon serenade must wait, just too many distractions and time constraints brought by a special visitor. Grandson Jordi has been in town going-on two weeks and I am temporarily filling the role of parent, which I do enjoy despite a routine dizzy in chaos. It all started last week when my wife carted the kid off to Point Judith and Block Island while I stayed home with the dogs. She said he had a ball. I wish I could have been there to teach him about outcast Roger Williams and the demonized Narragansett and Pequot tribes he befriended. That history lesson would have dovetailed nicely into our next stop, Fort Ticonderoga and the upper Hudson Valley of rich flintlock-and-tomahawk lore.

Actually, I did take off a couple of days at the end of last week and thus was not in the newsroom the day the story broke about the plug being pulled on our federal salmon program. On that day and every one since, I have morphed into my teacher mode, taking the kid under my wing on twice-daily river walks, meadow talks and swimming lessons that end today. By Sunday, I’ll be back to my normal routine, the soft, warm glow of retirement on a mellow crimson horizon, me reading and writing, trying to figure it all out and stitch it into something meaningful while pondering the future, one that promises to bring more reading and much more writing, which I can’t say I consider work. No, to me writing is just another game, the final one for a man who has all his life been a game-player — a fierce competitor, loyal teammate and friend, but seldom the coach’s pet, at least on school teams. As long as coaches didn’t try to deny my freedom and pleasures and, yes, a little mischief here and there, I was cool with it. But curfews and dress codes and team jackets with faux-leather sleeves? Well, they just weren’t for me, and I’m not ashamed to say they still aren’t. That stuff was created for a different breed of cat. The image reminds me of those silly bat-and-equipment bags softball players used to dangle over their shoulders and under their arm, bat handle sticking out the front. They’d lug them to the ballpark, through the town square and into the tavern for sacred ballplayer identity. Yeah, the fellas carried those bags proudly and, hey, some could even describe how to load and explode when shooting a 12-to-6 curveball off their back hip to the opposite field. Problem was that few if any had ever actually faced a 12-to-6, and fewer still could make consistent solid contact if challenged to do so off a tee. But, oh, how they carried those bags with that phony swagger which quickly vanished upon entering the white lines. It’s sad how much emphasis is placed on athletic accomplishment in this culture. What does it all mean after the skills, the strength, the reflexes and eyesight fade? Then, all that’s left is boring bluster and loud, drunken boasts.

Whoa! There I go again, getting carried away. How did I get from salmon sadness to hitting the breaking ball the other way, anyway? Oh yeah. Games … my past … my future … writing. Enough! Maybe I ought to go back and erase it all. Nah. What the heck? On to Jordi, what we’ve been seeing along the river, in the meadow; the dogs chasing squirrels and loud-mouthed killdeer screaming up and down the riverbanks, Chubby fired-up, determined to catch them, the birds even more determined to distract the dog from fleeing riverside offspring. Jordi soaks it all up, learning from a man introducing a style of thinking not always welcome in fluorescent classrooms, Sunday schools or cinderblock locker rooms. Thus far we’ve poked at a large painted turtle and observed the aforementioned killdeers along with kingfishers, crayfish, minnows, blue herons, birds of prey, all of them working the river above and below. We’ve examined the remnants of Irene, the fallen trees and other streamside debris, a huge pile of stones filling the bloated belly of a sharp river bend, a layer of fine gray silt enriching Sunken Meadow above.

More than anything else, we talk, focusing on the dogs, the sights, the sounds, the activity, how sad it is that humanity can’t function as harmoniously as nature. Jordi just wears this soft, innocent countenance, seems to “get it” with patient instruction. He’s learned about hayfield carnage and balloon scarecrows with large, colorful owl eyes that keep crows and other critters out of the garden. Apparently, those large, showy balloons hanging in the breeze on strings have no effect on black bears. The landowner who hung them stopped us on our way home Tuesday to show us large bear tracks angling across his garden. Likely a 200-plus-pound boar, alone, it had done some damage in a backyard but hadn’t so much as broken a squash or pepper leaf on its walk through the garden. The bear’s tracks, bigger than some men’s, were impressive indeed to a boy of 6. He won’t soon forget them.

Passing that same garden Wednesday morning, Jordi was quick to point out a solitary crow perched atop one of many tomato stakes between the intimidating owl eyes, and he found it quite amusing. I explained that there are always daring individuals, those willing to buck the tide and challenge authority. They’re the ones who end up in the principal’s office, get expelled from school and will never be candidates for floor manager at Dick’s Sporting Goods. You must be brave to be independent, I told him. Some who dare to be different find success, but most don’t. It’s always easier to follow rules and cower to authority, but not necessarily better in a philosophical sense. Jordi just looked up at me, somewhat bewildered, trying to grasp the gist. He’s a little young. Hopefully he’ll revisit the concept again and again when confronted with similar scenarios. I’m proud to plant such seeds, ones he’d never learn at Boy Scout camp.

Someday, I may teach the kid how to hold a bat, line up his knocking knuckles, roll his wrists, keep his eye on the ball, see it leave the pitcher’s hand. Maybe I’ll teach him to throw a baseball, show him how to create movement with different grips and release points. Then again, maybe I won’t. My priorities have changed dramatically as I’ve grown older and wiser, all the while sitting in the catbird’s seat overlooking small-time ballparks and gymnasiums. Given a choice about who my grandsons become as men, I guess I’d prefer free, critical thinkers over rigid hometown heroes who sport their team colors with pride and have no freakin’ clue.

Gotta go. Back to that thirsty river with a young grandson who loves to ramble with his gray, loving, mischievous mentor.

Chain Reaction

With news flying at me last week like black flies in a sticky Maine bog, I never got to a subject I wanted to discuss but figured I’d get to it this week. So, here it is: the subject of deer jumping to their deaths one by one off highway overpasses in deadly chain reactions. Who would have ever guessed that the little tidbit I put in this space a few weeks ago, just a simple tease to smoke out information that was for some reason impossible to pry from the authorities, would grow such sturdy legs? I can’t say I’m disappointed.

Anyway, soon after that quick mention of possibly two deer catapulting to their death off the Route 2 overpass spanning Interstate 91 in north Greenfield around daybreak June 17, I received an email from an old friend and UMass professor who preferred to remain anonymous. A PioneerValleytransplant from westernMaryland, where many family members remain, the man recalled “nearly 10 bucks leaping to their deaths near Flintstone, Md., on Interstate 68 one summer evening several years ago.” He had unsuccessfully Googled the story before sending me a link to theCumberlandTimes-News and suggesting I call there. Someone would remember the incident that had received extensive press coverage. Well, I followed the link, found the name of Managing Editor Jan Alderton, gave him a jingle and spoke to him at his midmorning desk. Although he couldn’t remember the incident, he knew just the man who would, veteran Outdoor Editor Mike Sawyers, and patched a call through to his extension. Sawyers picked up on the second ring and instantly remembered the carnage, which wasn’t recent. He guessed it occurred 10 or more years ago and, he thought, involved six bucks in velvet jumping one by one to their deaths, leaving a messy scene on the pavement below.

“Do a YouTube search on ‘deer jumping off bridges’,” Sawyers suggested. “I don’t think there’s anything on that particular incident but such deer events are not unusual. I remember someone sending me a YouTube link years ago.”

I took his advice and, sure enough, many videos, some with sinister laughter in the background as deer leap bridge railings to their death. Myself, I can handle such visuals and accept them as tragic reality, but I can’t say I find any humor in watching animals take death leaps.

Back to my original UMass professor source, he grew up on a dairy farm and surmised deer were predisposed to a follow-the-leader mentality common among hoofed farm animals. “I guess most people were astonished that those deer would follow one after another over the railing but I suspect it may be similar to other hoofed-animal behavior,” he wrote. “For instance, cow behavior. The old farm boy in us told us to identify the lead cow, get her to go somewhere and the rest of the herd would follow. This is the ‘lead-cow concept’ that leads a herd in a specific direction, and in this case, a lead deer leading the rest (on a fatal, panicked decision). Pretty amazing but it happens.”

Yes indeed. And apparently it happened right here inGreenfield, although the state police weren’t about to confirm it or provide further details to the scribes who tried to follow up on the initial June 17 police report. I’d love to know why. Sounds more like a power trip than anything else.

I blame secretive presidential candidate Willard “Mitt” Romney, who is now under fire for withholding income-tax returns from his days at Bain Capital. As governor, Romney instituted silence fromBayStateemployees by forbidding any press interaction without prior approval from a third-party screening agency. Now, even the most benign news must pass through these channels, stifling investigative journalism by tipping off the targets of probes and eliminating surprise bombshells. Such potentially damaging stories are these days softened by government spokespeople who flood the press with damage-control releases before the story “gets away from them.” In the old days, the harmful story broke, then the damage-control tried to play catch-up. There’s less and less of that these days, thus old news and declining readership. It’s a death knell for newspapers that wait for press releases, the same ones sent elsewhere the same day and “broken” by local television and radio stations before hitting the street in print.

Troubling Taboo

We call it “The Canopy,” a formal upstairs bedroom capping the southeast corner of our home’s main block, an 1827 addition by the last of three consecutive Samuel Hinsdales to own the property. I typically sleep there when my grandson supplants me in my downstairs bed, but this was the first time we had two grandsons, with 2-year-old Arie spending his first weekend without a parent. Soon he’ll be comfy as 6-year-old brother Jordan in our Upper Meadows home, its barns and sheds, nooks and crannies, the brook babbling out back.

I never object to sleeping in the room I like to praise as “fit for a princess,” because of its Sheraton four-poster bed, lace canopy crown and natural alarm. This time of year, the first soft ray of sunrise peeks through the northeast window before 6 a.m. and, already stirred by the crack of dawn, you wake with a feathery touch akin to a nurse’s warm washcloth squeezed from a bedside bucket and placed across your forehead. I will never tire of waking in that room, always early, never unpleasant, warm, cold or in between. I typically open my eyes, shift onto my back and get lost in the white lace labyrinth above. Looking down a tunnel through the foot of the bed, a bucolic oil painting of an English setter locked on point hangs over the fireplace. On the wall to the right hang large, framed, 19th century photo portraits of great-grandmother Fannie Woodruff and older sister Mariette, priggish Victorian prudes, Fannie a teen, eventually South Deerfield neighbors on properties abutting today’s high school before it was there.

Everything in that room has a story — from the two Sheraton chests, to the Federal shaving mirror atop the more formal one, to the braided rugs, tabernacle mirror, grain-painted doors and feather-painted floorboards — but especially that graceful canopy bed, simple elegance, figured maple iridescent in direct sunlight, the illusory 3-D bands appearing to breathe. When I linger before rising, my wheels spin into overdrive, intensifying from purr to hum to scream, the white diamonds blurring into one of those whimsical fogs that cling to a summer daybreak pond, liberating me into fleece-lined reflection. Thoughts bombard me. Who else has slept in this public room? Any ghosts? How many children conceived? What lovers’ spats? Think of the devilish sins delivered by stagecoach and neighborhood lust?

I flitter into a quick review of the previous hours and days, focusing on the salient stuff. The thoughts consume my imagination. Then, suddenly, the spell is broken by bright sunlight, the figured maple almost swaying like a windswept wheat field. That’s when I rise, pick my clothes off the floor, slip into them and start the new day, glowing with inspirational energy you can’t buy at Rite-Aid. I walk down a long hall made longer by the open ballroom door, turn right atop the steep staircase, descend to the dining room, look across at old Eli Terry tick-tocking from a sturdy midriff shelf on the south wall and am always surprised by the early hour. It seems later up in that bright, cheerful canopy stitched in diamond fantasy, even under gray skies and forlorn spirits.

It was Sunday morning, my wife and grandkids were still sleeping and, for selfish reasons, I didn’t want to disturb their slumber. It would be nice to get a couple of hours of reading in before entertaining the kids. So I went quietly to the kitchen and made a black pot of coffee, Sumatran Mediterranean fresh from Coffee Roasters’ crock. As I went through this familiar routine, I was still processing my canopy thoughts about Jordi and his troubling fear of nudity. It’s hard for me to get my head around such inhibitions in an innocent 6-year-old boy, ones I can’t find comforting.

It all started Friday night when I suggested that maybe he should sleep upstairs with me and let Arie sleep with my wife in the marital bed. “Well, Grampy, I would but there’s just one little problem,” he said. “You sleep naked.” To be honest, sleeping in the raw seems so normal to me that I didn’t even know he knew. But he obviously has noticed and is uncomfortable with it. I have never hidden my body at home. When it became clear to me that he viewed nudity as unusual or dangerous or dirty, I explained to him that we all enter the world in that state. Did he find birth threatening? No answer, just a pensive, confused countenance, perplexed.

The next day, my wife and I took the boys and dogs for one of our daily walks along a secluded, idyllic section of the Green River. Because it was hot, I figured it was a great day for swimming and river exploration so wore a bathing suit. Playing later in the shallow river, Arie was encumbered by a saturated diaper and my wife, innocently enough, suggested I remove it and let him play naked as his father and uncle often had as preschoolers and, in the right place, older. Again, Jordi found the thought revolting. As I took his brother’s diaper off, he fled the water, stood on the bank and said, “I’m outta here!” No sir, he wasn’t going to swim in the same river with naked Arie.

Hmmm? I was stunned, had seen them in the bathtub together without any modesty hang-ups. What was the genesis of this strange taboo? It was tough to swallow for a man who often witnessed nude swimming in public places during the Sixties and early Seventies, never a complaint, an arrest or hassles, just total, uninhibited freedom, be it at Wellfleet or Nauset beaches on the Cape, Halifax Gorge, The Whitingham “Rocks” and Queechee Gorge in Vermont, or Chesterfield Gorge and the upper Green River right here in the Happy Valley. Back then, skinny dipping was common, not so much as a dirty look or whisper, never a second thought about kids, maybe even a little self-consciousness about being clothed where nudity prevailed.

Must be times have changed in Puritan America — not, in my mind, for the better. I preferred the social climate before Bible-thumping whack-jobs gained traction, pushed hippies onto society’s periphery and yanked us back into the Dark Ages of repression and silly inhibition. Europeans ridicule these weird American attitudes about naked bodies and sexuality, and I agree, though I do respect my grandson’s discomfort. I do hope he changes with maturity.

Hopefully, I haven’t offended anyone. I guess we must think twice nowadays before wading into such risqué discussion. I couldn’t resist. Blame that stimulating canopy sunrise and its white, diamond-laced maze that blurred into disorienting fantasy and smothered me in a mystical fog of introspection — ever elusive, and welcome

Passion and Panic

I knew before pulling out my desk chair Wednesday morning that it was dangerous. I could sense it. Why had I picked up that morning phone call, breathed that refreshing air on my walk, watched Chubby freewheel like I once did many years ago, just the thought of it spinning my wheels into another realm? Problem is, back when I could run, I didn’t know where to go. Now I know where to go and can’t get there. Oh well. Such is life. No complaints.

First the phone call, old friend, faraway, separated by two or three time zones. The man was a ballplayer in his day, not one of these delusional wannabes still trying to prove prowess. It was early morning from my friend’s location so I knew it had to be something important but wasn’t expecting this. A family man who never “wandered” to my knowledge, he was true blue for nearly 40 years of marriage to his high school sweetheart. Then, out of a clear blue sky with thin white clouds of no ill intent, it just happened, akin to an airborne seed that falls on a perfect spot and immediately flourishes. Yes, an attraction took root and now my buddy’s feeling quite guilty while dreading the inevitable “chat” with his soon-to-be betrayed partner, a guilt softened by emotional euphoria like no other. Why he called me I do not know. I hadn’t spoken to him in years, maybe 10, but we were tight in our day, still are it seems. He probably knew I was cut from a different cloth and seldom choose to follow conventional paths or direct others toward them.

We spoke an hour. I assured him that I would still be his friend when others rejected him as a selfish louse, her as a heartless home-breaker. I don’t view such affairs through the preacher’s lens. I say if the wind deposits you in utopia and you know it was meant to be, go with your heart, your soul and Nature’s will — Chamber of Commerce, PTA and Ecumenical Council be damned. Of course, that’s just me, the adaptive pantheist and contrarian. But enough of that. Newspapers can, you know, be quite uncomfortable with such blasphemous chit-chat, stuff that stirs the ire of priests, judges, school committees, and chiefs of police, self-appointed guardians, all, of freedom and justice. Trust me, I’ll have my say, am working on ebbs and flows, development of characters and dialogue. Never easy, it’s been under way for some time now, through inspiring spurts and annoying clogs. I warned my wife that it could be the end of my marriage and my job, hey maybe even a lawsuit to complete the Triple Crown. Nothing worthy of arrest, although you never know in today’s America, where they seem to find a way to put a man behind bars if they want to. My wife has promised her support. She’s stuck by me this far. Why change?

Enough! Back to vanilla Trail fodder, the stuff average readers supposedly prefer — benign subjects, easy targets, no controversy to draw irate calls or letters to the editor. So let’s return to last week’s subject of the deer leaping off the Interstate 91 Route 2 overpass in north Greenfield a couple of weekends back. Reporters tried to get the story from State Police but came up empty when barracks spokesmen went mute and directed the scribes to the mandatory state Executive Office of Energy and Environmental Affairs screen for all media questions to bureaucrats. I can’t explain the paranoia. Can you? We’re not dealing with terrorists, assassins or space aliens here, just the simple case of a wild animal committing an unusual act that showed up on a police report. Stonewalled, the scribes were reduced to trading newsroom snipes about suicidal deer. Ha-ha.

I tried to get around the police roadblock last week by mentioning the incident here, hoping to flush out an answer. Sure enough, mission accomplished soon after the column hit the street. My Recorder phone rang quickly after my June 21 arrival. The man on the other end introduced himself as a longtime local golf-course employee, said he thought we had met but he’d rather remain anonymous. He hadn’t seen the deer, his wife had, but he was able to offer scanty detail. The tragedy occurred just before 5:46 a.m. June 17, when his wife placed her call to the police. That done, she called her husband and was so shook up that she admitted herself to the hospital. The story is that she was crossing the bridge and suddenly, out of nowhere, a deer jumped in front of her car and froze to ponder its next move. It looked one way, then another, then directly at the vehicle with an expression of, “Uh-oh. What in Sam Jesus am I doing here?” before catapulting the bridge railing in one gymnastic leap off four coordinated legs. The poor creature was obviously not expecting the 25-foot drop to the 91 pavement. The stunned woman jumped out, hurried around her vehicle and looked down at the prostrate deer lying on the highway below, likely dead or expiring. She doesn’t remember seeing movement.

The story I had heard in the newsroom later that day was that two deer had gone over the railing, which my telephone source admitted was possible even though his wife could remember only one and, though unsure, thought she may even have hit it. An animal lover, she was so distraught that the incident created memory loss and confusion that required inpatient treatment. She appeared to be coming out of her anguish by the time her husband called me at work, but he was vague about the nature of her issues, which is understandable. Who wants to air something like that out in the local paper?

Anyway, her memory was still not clear by the time I spoke to the man, we have not spoken since and I don’t intend to pester him further. He gave me what I wanted. On the surface, it appears to be a simple case of panic by an animal that ventured into a vulnerable place, got claustrophobic in the tight confines of an overpass, and made a knee-jerk decision and instinctive leap. It can happen.

OK, I guess I’ve filled my weekly allotted space. I could have filled a whole page just with the opening thought train, a lubed locomotive itching to lose its brakes down a steep mountain pass. And to think I didn’t even get to that beautiful Montague sky and the conversation it sparked at the Saturday night summer-solstice party I attended; nothing about my friend locked in jail, my reading and meadow musings. I may get to that stuff next week. No promises. Who knows? I may just answer another interesting distant phone call, take another thought-provoking walk, and flail away at this keyboard that may yet be my demise; or, at least, drive me to an autonomous sanctuary where I’m free to ramble.

Birthday Moon

It’s here, summer solstice, new moon. Beware! Things are haywire. What a loony lead-up to our longest day.

It all started Friday on my daily rounds with the dogs when — Bingo! — back of the hayfield, orchard grass standing tall, bobolinks perched on hardy weed shafts, fluttering, hovering, I saw an uncommon sight, actually not as unusual as it once was. A moose. Not big, but a moose nonetheless, standing tall and alert, looking straight at me. I stopped and backed across the road into the landowner’s driveway, where I parked, got out and walked through the breezeway to the glass kitchen door. Sure enough, both there, man and wife, him seated, her standing at the sink.

“Hey, there’s a moose on the loose in the hayfield!”

“Really?”

“Yeah, wanna see?”

He stood and they hurried outside, him yelling once outside to neighbor Mike, who wasn’t out. They reached the driveway and the lanky quadruped was trotting south. It broke into a scalped hayfield and kept trotting toward a narrow tree-line overlooking a thin riverside swale bordering cropland. I bid the couple adieu and headed back where I started. Hey, maybe it was going to descend into Sunken Meadow, great habitat, wet and getting wetter daily, aided by busy beavers. Beavers and cougars. Seems there’s been a lot of talk about them recently in this space. Not today. Risky. Don’t want some Christian conservative, the worst kind, to accuse me of cheap thrills and hidden messages. I park my truck and take a walk, no moose, no sign of it up top, either. Gone.

A couple of days later I walked into work to start a new week and, not five minutes into my shift, at my desk, a colleague I call Big Boiczek says, “Hey, I saw a moose Friday night on the way home from work, about 10:30, headed for GCC.”

“Interesting. I saw it, too, four hours earlier, a young one, just north of where you saw it.”

A news scribe overheard us, said a moose had been spotted all around Greenfield over the weekend. It was in the Greenfield police report, had somehow crossed 91 and ended up downtown Friday night, by the jail, then in many neighborhoods. Cops gave chase, came up empty. No big deal. Once akin to UFO sightings here, moose are now resident, have lived in territory south of Greenfield where I’ve hunted for many years, sign everywhere, hilltown residents along the periphery routinely spotting antlered bulls, cows with young. Something tells me we’re headed there with cougars, populations quickly expanding into the Midwest and eastward. I believe it’ll happen in my lifetime, unless I meet a sudden, untimely death, the best kind.

Do you remember when moose started showing up in these parts and the experts blamed it on a disorienting parasitic brain-worm? Well, it wasn’t any brain worm, just another historic species reappearing with the forests, like bears and wolves and bobcats and coyotes, all of them coming back with reforestation. I wonder what’s holding back the rattlesnake renaissance. Those venomous serpents were common here from the contact period well into the 19th century and seem to show up everywhere in early New England narrative. Native tribesmen used to adorn themselves with necklaces strung with rattlesnake fangs. That was during the Little Ice Age, when the Northeastern climate was colder than now. I suspect rattlesnakes will soon be back, too, not a pleasant thought for a man who does a lot of off-road, bare-legged hiking with little foot protection.

Back to the moose, though, it wasn’t the only weird weekend occurrence I bumped into. No sir. It got even better Saturday night on the Route 2 overpass in north Greenfield, where, again according to the Greenfield police report, two deer catapulted over the railing and onto Interstate 91. Scribes have had no luck hacking through annoying government-mandated information screens to confirm the tale and get further details, never easy since Gov. Mitt Romney instituted rules restricting media access to state employees. It’s frustrating for reporters chasing an interesting story on deadline or anytime. I learned long ago to ignore the irritating information roadblock. In this case, it was on the police blotter so it must have happened. Given that, and assuming the deer weren’t drunken teenage daredevils, the question is why would they leap off a 25-foot highway overpass. Coyotes, perhaps? Mountain lion? Panic in a dangerous new place, traffic buzzing by? I guess we’ll never know. Worth reporting, though; just the type of story you’ll find in newspapers hamstrung by politicians like Mr. Romney, who may yet be our next president. It wouldn’t surprise me. America deserves a leader who won’t answer questions or allow anyone associated with his government to do so, unless, of course, they have a Master’s in manipulation and deception. But enough of that, back to the animal kingdom, this time critters right around my homestead.

With all the other stuff occurring, why should I be spared at home, where over the weekend we encountered our first kitchen mouse since our April 1997 purchase. Imagine that! More than 15 years in a 200-year-old rural home and never an indoor mouse. That changed late Saturday night when my wife went to the sink and screamed bloody murder, whatever good that does. A trap works much better. But that little issue was insignificant compared to the skunk letting loose around my home for a few days, filling a few rooms with eye-watering stench. What was happening, I can’t say. But my wife called Tuesday night at work and said she had seen it out by the woodshed, fat and healthy, obviously not ill. By Wednesday afternoon, all that was left was faint scent in hot, steamy air out back. Go figure. A litter coming of age? Maybe. Who knows?

Come to think of it, the weekend presolstice weirdness was not limited to the animal kingdom. How about my Tri-Tronics electric dog collars? They’re going goofy, too. I own that are operated by one remote-control. One collar works fine, another won’t turn on, the third won’t turn off. When I put them in the charging cradle, everything seems fine. The charging light glows red and turns to green in a couple of hours when it’s supposedly fully charged. Problem is, when I remove them, they blink green and red a few times, then one keeps blinking reen, telling me it’s on, and the other will not go on even when I try pushing the button with a Phillips screwdriver. The technician I spoke to Monday told me what to do to for a home remedy. I tried. No luck. Under warranty, I mailed the two malfunctioning transmitters to Tri-Tronics’ South Research Loop in Tucson, Ariz., where they’ll be repaired or replaced and returned.

Whew! What a strange six days leading up to the summer solstice, huh? Me a Moon Child, no less. Maybe I should have just been patient and waited for the weirdness to fade. Either that or perhaps I should have thrown both of those transmitters off the Route 2 overpass and taken a flying leap along with them.

Nah. Just kidding. I wouldn’t miss this next full moon for anything. A birthday moon. Promising. It should be intense.

Nice

Mystery Ramble

Pancho was a bandit boys

His horse was fast as polished steel

Wore his gun outside his pants

For all the honest world to feel.

Pancho met his match you know

On the desert down in Mexico

Nobody heard his dying words

Ah, but that’s the way it goes.

“Pancho and Lefty”

Townes Van Zandt

 

Mysteries everywhere — in your face and faraway. They pop into your path and vanish like scent in a windstorm. Time to ponder.

Knut Hamsun’s “Mysteries” comes to mind. Three or four times I have read it. Not recently. A fierce foe of anything average and conventional, Hamsun often explores love, loss and human frailties: joys, pains, idle thoughts, some poignant, others haunting. More than anything else, Hamsun seemed to struggle with women, no relief. He likely never solved the dilemma, a recurring caress-and-dagger theme in his work. His dissection of soul digs deep, exposing subliminal artifice in relationships, bare as raw lust and jealousy, the hatred, inner torment it can unleash. He always relates it all back to nature, the big picture, larger than man, bigger than life, no younger.

So what is it, you may ask, that tangles me into this bizarre labyrinth of morning reflection? Nothing special. Just a basic walk coupled with recent observations, occurrences. Stuff like the dwarf deer that captured my fancy and that of a friend who called, was equally perplexed by the same peculiar animal; also does and fawns; a happenstance meeting with an old friend of my late son’s down in fragrant Sunken Meadow, the sweetness overwhelming, a hidden place where I didn’t expect to find him; lastly, reading, putting it together. Mysteries, all intriguing, all connected, all meaning something; what, I cannot say for sure, except that trying to figure it out makes life interesting for those of us who like to wander and ponder. But, no, I’m not here to hang any Hamsunesque female issues out on the clothesline. I have none. But enough of that, onto the task at hand.

Let’s begin with the young man, friend of my son, fishing for trout with his two 30ish Pennsylvania pals, a handsome trio, the devil in their eyes. Fishing the Green River, one of them caught a fat 18-inch rainbow pictured on his cell phone. He released it back into the stream, free to live another day, give a different angler splashy, acrobatic thrills. I didn’t immediately recognize the first fella I spoke to, hard-pack of Viceroys cupped in his right hand. He knew me. I didn’t hear him say, “Hi, Gary.” My wife did. He identified himself to her. I remembered him well, got talking about the river, fishing, the status of Green River brown trout, then parted. His eyes told me he wanted to say something about Gary. He didn’t. My wife didn’t spare me a couple of weeks ago, out of the clear blue, no warning, Doc Watson pickin’ and grinnin’, pointed Mount Ascutney on the Vermont horizon.

“Why did they take him from us?” she gasped.

“Why did who take him?”

Pause.

“Whoever.”

A perfect answer for me; soothing, too, for her grieving soul. Why dwell on sadness? That’s my philosophy. But, yes, I do often think of him, then let it go like powder in the breeze by capturing a new thought that sets me free as that liberated rainbow. The Buddhists or Taoists or one of those Far Eastern religions compare life to a stream, ebbing and flowing, swirling and foaming, always progressing. I understand, have felt it often, learned to ride ebullient currents, gather strength in eddies, even once survived a disorienting death spiral in turbulent spring waters under the falls at a now-forbidden gorge. Lucky, I guess. Tell me I’m crazy. Wouldn’t be the first time. Only words. Crazy like a fox, a cunning cougar.

Whoa!

The deer, that little Memorial-Day-Weekend deer in the tall neighborhood hayfield. I first heard about it from a colleague who had chased it from his tender young lettuce patch. The man, working, threw dirtballs to chase it, too tame, off. The next day, his uncle encountered it near the greenhouses and shooed it away. A day later, at the start of a noontime trip to Bardwells Ferry and Conway, I saw it, too large for this year’s fawn, too small for last year’s. My buddy called later in the day, ice cubes clinking. He was confused, wanted to chat. He had seen it in the same field I had, closer to the road. He stopped to scare it back from the road, said it acted tame, no fear. A half-hour earlier, atop the hill, he had seen a similar deer, same size, no spots, never before had seen anything like it in May. An orphaned early birth? Maybe. Did I have any theories? Yeah, nature’s mysteries. What else can I say?

I have since seen two does with spring lambs, not to mention many tiny fawn tracks following the paths I’ve cut through chest-high orchard grass, timothy seed-heads finally formed. The deer must be enjoying the thick, sumptuous layer of clover underneath. These fawns look like they should, tiny and spotted, staying close to the mother. My brother-in-law in Freedom, Maine, called to say he’s already observed twin fawns nursing out the bay window of his gentleman’s farm. Does it get any better?

As for reading, well, I’m still mired in the final French & Indian War, focused on that wedge-shaped theater between the Hudson and Mohawk valleys. I blew through a four-volume study on Rogers’ Rangers, then a Jeffery, Lord Amherst, biography, now a biography of Sir William Johnson, a white man with uncanny sway over the fierce Five Nations tribesmen and their seductive women. What I find most interesting about buckskinned frontiersmen like Rogers and Johnson is their rugged independence and total disrespect for authority, particularly incompetent British regulars giving orders, men driven by ego and petty jealousies instead of sound judgment and strategy. Then you read something like Michael Hastings’ “The Last Prisoner of War” in the new Rolling Stone and realize how history keeps repeating itself. Cantankerous scribe Ambrose Bierce, himself a decorated Civil War veteran, said 100 years ago that some of our bravest, wisest warriors die by firing squad, their own. Now this: Pfc. Bowe Bergdahl, a pathetic 23-year-old Idahoan prisoner of the Taliban; he may yet meet a gruesome death for obeying his conscience. I read his tale, felt sad, admired his courage. Others are screaming “Traitor!” Bierce knew the game, hated it.

It’s funny. You don’t have to wonder how petty, incompetent officers gain rank. The mystery is how they maintain it. If seeking the truth, turn to artists, study their books, their paintings, their songs. Ridiculed as weak and soft by reactionary politicians and haughty newspaper editors, their work exhales wisdom under clear, cold skies.

I suppose some folks are born to answer Yes, sir!, wear robes at the altar, earn Eagle badges, and punch clocks all the way to the customer-service-booth crown, where their large color photo hangs in a faux-walnut frame over shiny, polished floors. Others resist authority, cut their own trail and may or may not find success. These days, the odds are against them. They’re more apt to find suffering, may even perish in stinking, shallow shame kicked upon them by wing-tipped guardians of freedom, liberty, justice and a thing called status quo.

No mystery there, ma’am, threadbare fact.

Ascutney Fork

Traveling north on the interstate along the west bank of our Great River, it is near the large green Bellows Falls sign where, under clear skies, pointed Mt. Ascutney first calls — its distant, faded peak towering above nearer foothills.

Long before roads existed, this distinctive Vermont peak served as an important landmark for approaching travelers trekking Native paths through primeval forest between the Connecticut and Hudson valleys. Footpaths and waterways led through the Green Mountains, to and from the Lakes Region of George and Champlain, a picturesque corridor stained by colonial blood, poisoned by lead and rum and human greed. Do not all wars carry the stench of avarice? Well, I guess not in the homogenized history force-fed our schoolkids by chauvinistic sophists. But why belabor that tired subject? Propaganda’s as old as indigenous trails.

Ascutney today stands tall, steep and bold overlooking Windsor, a river town for some reason called Vermont’s birthplace, despite its central location. Though I have never visited the peak, I’m sure Mt. Monadnock is prominent in the southeast from this swollen wisdom tooth separating two important Connecticut River tributaries — the Black and White rivers, both of their valleys important ancient east-west travel corridors between our valley and that of the upper Hudson, where rugged terrain and stunning scenery eventually connects to the St. Lawrence Seaway, wrapping around Canada’s Maritime Provinces and out to sea. From the Hudson headwaters came legends of: forts William Henry, Ticonderoga and Crown Point; provincial soldiers Robert Rogers, Moses Hazen and Ethan Allen; foreign generals Abercromby, Amherst and Montcalm; and brave, elusive, St. Francis tribesmen, many displaced from their southern and eastern homelands by 17th-century European intrusion. All of these colonial protagonists held deeper connections than armchair historians realize to the Pioneer Valley we call home.

Wouldn’t you know that Ascutney in the north is invisible from Fort No. 4 in Charlestown, N.H., where I brought grandsons Jordan and Arie Sunday for an annual French & Indian War reenactment. From this once-vulnerable northern outpost, the only hills visible are three shallow humpbacks south of the Black River confluence across the Connecticut. Salmon undoubtedly made their way up this tributary each spring during the mid-18th century, but not shad, which could migrate no farther than Fort No. 3 at Walpole, N.H., across from Bellows Falls, where frontiersmen and, before them, Natives congregated for springtime bounty. Though unseen, Ascutney has always loomed large in the background. And, no, it’s not a coincidence that the supposed birthplace of the Vermont and, a short distance south, the location known in early vernacular as “Number Four” sit on its eastern apron.

My Groton/Middlesex County bloodlines run directly through old Fort No. 4, particularly in the fortified homestead of Capt. Isaac Parker in the northwest corner. Arie, nearing 3, is too young to understand genealogy, but Jordi, 6, is not. He “got it” last year when we toured Parker’s upstairs bedroom with an iron cannon beside the bed, and on Sunday he carried an entitled air. How cool is that for a young boy, to realize his ninth great-grandfather had a bedside cannon to fight off surprise Indian attack?

In the Native American room just before the fort’s southeast corner, Arie fascinated by a bearskin hanging on the wall, a blue-eyed man of Native blood was sitting on a rough, splay-legged stool speaking about his proud Abenaki/St. Francis lineage. He said the director of the fort was the descendant of a Deerfield Stebbins grandmother who had been captured as a child in the 1704 raid and decided to stay with her adopted tribe and Abenaki husband, an occurrence far more common than the old Puritan historians wanted anyone to believe. When I informed the spry, articulate octogenarian that I was a Capt. Parker descendant, it got his attention. “Congratulations,” he quipped. “Maybe you can tell us where he got all his money. Unlike the others here at the fort, he carried the title of Gentleman.”

Unfortunately, I had no answers. In fact, it was the first I had heard of Parker’s wealth. I promised to “look into it” upon visiting Groton someday soon to pore over ancient town records. Groton was an early market town, I explained, a fur-trading outpost controlled by the Willard family, which also had a strong presence in the 18th century forts between Northfield and No. 4. The Willards were to Groton what the Pynchons were to Springfield, and my ancestors who settled there before coming to Whately were likely tanners, a lucrative trade at such a location. The progenitor of my Sanderson line, goldsmith Robert, a master of ye mint at Boston, likely was an investor in the fur trade and had sent eldest son William there as a tradesman. That, I have not yet documented, I told him, but I intend to do so in retirement. It’s fascinating to put together such family puzzles; at least for me it is. Maybe I’m weird.

Hopefully, I’ll be able to “plant the seed” of family discovery in my grandsons. I’m working on it, would love future research companions.

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