Lessons Leaned

I’m closed into my study, air-conditioner purring, sun trying to poke through dense gray skies and break up the muggy air. My older son is crafting a new song in the room at my back and, me, I’m hoping to find enough time to mow later, wondering where this weekly writing journey will take me.

It’s interesting how stories develop, how there are days when you sit down and try to come up with something, consider taking the week off, rarely find a good enough excuse. Maybe this week I had one. Son Gary II’s family of four has shared my home for the last couple of weeks, which has given me an extended period to spend with grandsons Jordie, 4, and Arie, 10 months. Usually, I spend a day here, a day there, maybe even a weekend with them, but never have they actually lived with me this long, Jordie eagerly tailing along on my daily travels, which can get interesting, sometimes maybe even “inappropriate” for kids, depending on who’s passing judgment. So, yes, this was a first. Fun. Brought me back to parenting. Gave me a chance to teach Jordie in a non-threatening environment, a far cry from what he’ll likely soon discover in some breathless schoolhouse, where, unfortunately, he’s bound to encounter some bored “educator” standing at the chalkboard for a paycheck, not the love of teaching. Then it’ll be all about raising your hand before speaking, sitting still and memorizing lists of words that mean little but must be spelled correctly to succeed. It doesn’t matter if you understand and know how to use these words, just spell them right, Sonny, if you want to pass. Ah, yes, the sad state of education and standardized testing. Peee-U.

It’s sad when you think about it, which I find myself occasionally doing, especially when I’m getting a daily dose of inquisitive, youthful eyes aching for new information and concepts, fresh words for an expanding vocabulary, new ideas to meld with the old and form perspective. The questions are intuitive, fascinating, often surprising, never boring. They come at you from all angles: in the barn, by the brook, in the car, at the supper table, on our daily walks through Sunken Meadow. Basic stuff like who, what, where and why? Maybe when. Constant questions; answers often requiring finesse, the ability to drop to a juvenile level that can be easily comprehended, comparison and analogy helping along the way.

Take for example the concept of a swollen river, which I tried to impress upon Jordie on our walks along the Green River, our trips to the backyard brook. The first time I used that description we were headed toward a section of the Green where he daily picks his way down an undercut back near an apple tree to play in the water. As we approached the familiar site along a grassy farm road, I pondered aloud if the river would be swollen following the rain. Jordie looked at me inquisitively, like, “Huh, what do you mean, Grampy, swollen river?” I asked him if he ever noticed how after a tumble on his knee, elbow or hand, it hurts and gets bigger. Well, that’s called swollen: bigger. Same is true for a river or stream. Rain makes them bigger, or swollen. I wasn’t certain he got it, but thought he did. Then, Wednesday morning, I knew the lesson had registered when, on an alternate route to the same spot, he asked, “Grampie, do you think the river is swollen?” Instant gratification. More, please. And, yes, more was on the agenda.

When we got to our spot where the dogs always jump in, swim across, get a drink, we sat on a red-stained picnic table overlooking the river and I pointed out the murky water below. I told him the river was riled up, dirty, that it would be a good day to catch fish because fish feel invisible in dirty water, come out to feed on the many insects and worms that have been swept off the bank or trees and bushes and into the stream. He seemed to get it, will someday probably ask to go fishing during a rain. I hope so, would love to teach him to fish for trout on a rainy summer day, perhaps someday pass on all my expensive rods, reels and accessories that have sat idle far too long.

Jordie’s learning experience at Sunken Meadow was not limited to the river. No, much more. He learned about the dogs, hunting dogs, all nose and tail, boundless energy. I’d park and release them from their porta-kennels daily and then watch as they enthusiastically jumped down off the bed of my truck, sprinting down the rows of young Christmas trees, bounding, springing off their back legs, front legs curled underneath at the elbows, bursting through the dense brush along the perimeter, then popping back out, excited. Pure joy. From this he learned a couple of lessons. First, the dogs were looking for cottontail rabbits that had left their scent behind while eating clover, white and red, lots off it. Perhaps they also smelled deer and ducks or geese or wild turkeys, maybe squirrels, all of which will come to a fertile wetland like that to feed and nest and romp. Second, he learned to read the dogs by focusing on their tails, the faster they wagged the hotter the scent. After a few days, he understood and pointed it out to me when either Lily or Buddy, “were on a fresh scent,” a phrase he heard me use often, new to him, a new concept that he won’t soon forget. It’s ingrained.

Another time, we were down in that same quiet slice of Connecticut Valley paradise and the owner came through in her blue station wagon. She stopped to talk, told me she heard I had written more about her property, seemed cool with it, then told us the tale of her clover field. She plants red and white clover there to save her Christmas trees from deer, which will eat evergreens when hard-up but won’t touch them when the rows between the young trees contain tasty clover undergrowth. “Some people shoot the deer when they destroy their crops,” I later told Jordie. “The lady uses a creative approach to save her trees, and the deer.” His response? “She’s a nice lady, Grampy.” Indeed. He got it. More than one way to skin a cat. Someday I’ll teach him that saying, too. Bet on it. In the right situation, when I know he’ll understand. Someday I may even use the old “closer the bone, sweeter the meat” saying, then explain it’s meaning. When he uses it, someone, somewhere will probably emit a sinister chuckle and he’ll wonder why. He’ll soon understand that, too, probably sooner than I did, and I was far from sheltered.

We also touched on the killing concept. Jordie knows I hunt, am capable of killing. He often asks me about it, stuff like: “Grampy, you can’t kill mommy deer or baby deer;” or “Would a hunter kill a mother duck with babies?” No, I tell him, laws are in place to protect babies from being orphaned. Hunting occurs in the fall when immature creatures can fly and run and fend for themselves with others of their species to help. It’s never easy for a child to comprehend because a child relates wildlife directly to human beings and it’s difficult to justify hunting and killing on those terms. But the fact is that human beings are predators, and birds and animals and fish are not human. Case closed. Once again it takes finesse to explain the difference, one “animal lovers” — you know, the ones who hang up their lambskin coats before sitting down to a medium-rare, Whately Inn rack of lamb — can’t seem to get their heads around. Jordie will understand. I’ll teach him not to be a hypocrite, to be tolerant of all types of folks as long as they don’t try to impose their will and lifestyle on him. Value your independence, your freedom: that’s what I’ll teach him. Don’t try to fit under that cookie-cutter they’ll try to squish you into. Fight back. Be an individual, maybe even “eccentric” if that’s what they want to call you. I hope he listens.

Jordie is gone now. He went back to Vermont Wednesday. I’ll miss him. I hope “the authorities” don’t ruin him, suffocate his curiosity, his spontaneity. He has a chance in Vermont, I guess, where they seem to have a clue. But one bad experience can do irreparable damage to a young lad, send him off on a defiant ride that can make life miserable. I know. I lived it. To be honest, loved every minute of it.

It’s true that it’s safer to play the game by the rules. True, indeed. Less trouble. But it’s also true that independence nurtures wisdom.

Whoa, Nellie!

With more than a week to digest Greenfield’s June 8 biomass vote, I must admit to finding it encouraging on a couple of levels.

First, the people have spoken loud and clear. How else to describe a 3,300-700 mandate, one that would have likely been more overwhelming had neighboring towns voted? Second, this may be the beginning of the end for that reactionary old-Greenfield gang that seems to be pushing hardest for the project; not because it’s good for Greenfield or Franklin County, but because the good old boys identify their opposition as dangerous, tie-dyed progressives. Well, this time, they’re dead wrong. Most citizens who’ve spent any time objectively investigating biomass plants the size of the one proposed for Greenfield come away with reservations, and that’s exactly what was felt at the polls: citizens pumping their brakes. Whoa! they shouted, we don’t want this “clean-energy” con job jammed down our throats before we know more, which is exactly what the people with the most to gain feared. Time is their enemy.

It appears that the worm has turned in Greenfield. Voters are tired of being ignored by elected officials. A friend of mine — no liberal by any stretch; quite the contrary, a proud, card-carrying Republican — attended a biomass public hearing at Greenfield High School last year and came away angry and dismayed. He phoned me the next morning and said that, given what he had witnessed, the entire town board should have been removed by the mayor and replaced by special election. Why? “Because they’re elected to listen, and they were not listening, didn’t even pretend to be.” In fact, he characterized them as smug, rude and pig-headed, their minds made up before the meeting, in no mood to listen. Obviously, that’s just one man’s opinion, but I respect him, and respect goes a long way in my world.

It seems that nothing has changed with proponents following last week’s lopsided vote, which they now spin as “misleading” and “one-sided.” Their position is that only opponents marched to the polls, thus the landslide. Had those in favor spent as much time organizing support as the antis, they reason, the results would have been different. Yeah, they admit, the election drew a 35-percent turnout, a big number for an off-year election. They aren’t denying that. How can they? But they’re still trying their best to downplay the mandate as one generated by a committed opposition that makes up less than half the registered voters. What about the other 65 percent? That’s their battle cry — one that really irks the rapidly growing opposition. So, once again, it seems that the town is not listening; and if the powers that be continue to ignore and dismiss this vote, future voters will likely banish them to the sidelines.

This latest battle is an extension of the long, drawn-out big-box dispute, on many levels a culture war, with several of the same players on both sides working in full view and behind the scenes; but the difference is that many residents who were indifferent or even in favor of Wal-Mart are vehemently opposed to this biomass monstrosity targeted for northeastern Greenfield. At least that’s the impression I’ve gotten in my travels, and I’m not new around here. Far from it. Frankly, I was stunned by some of the people writing critical letters to the editor and sporting “Biomass? No Thanks!” and “Vote No on Questions 1, 2 and 3” lawn signs. It told me people were feeling insulted and ignored, like the state, then the town were sold a bill of goods by  some snake-oil salesman behind closed doors, then attempted to slip biomass through before it could be scrutinized. All for a buck. When, to their horror, the questions did start, Matt Wolfe and Pioneer Renewable Energy had all the quick answers and diversions that any salesmen worth their salt have up their sleeves.

The proposal to use Greenfield wastewater as a coolant wasn’t abandoned at the 11th hour because of any altruistic change of heart; it was tossed aside because the proponents had correctly read Greenfield’s political winds and hoped they could keep the voters home. Not only that but a statewide movement opposing biomass was gathering momentum. Finally, questions were being asked and the state government was getting nervous, not nearly as fidgety of the PRE people who were hoping to rake in a lot of dough before people were fully informed about their supposed “clean-energy” alternative, clean and green. Yeah, right! Sounds good … until you explore it, which, thankfully, many in Greenfield and the surrounding communities did. The more they learned, the more they fought. Then, for good reason, the state got nervous about supporting large-scale biomass, wasn’t so sure it wanted to line up behind it. Too many difficult questions to answer, the salient ones being: 1.) Is supplying biomass plants acceptable use of our forests? 2.) Is there enough fuel to make biomass feasible and sustainable for the long run? and 3.) Do we really want to belch more smoke into our atmosphere to make energy for some faraway place? More and more folks are answering those question the same way voters in Greenfield responded to Questions 1, 2 and 3: No way!

I suspect that last week’s vote was the beginning of the end for biomass in Greenfield. Maybe I’m wrong. We’ll see. But that’s my instinct, and I couldn’t be happier. Better days may well be ahead for Greenfield. The
signs of positive change are blooming downtown and elsewhere. Now what we need are agents of change who are willing to listen and learn while transitioning a stagnant town, one that knew glory days, into the 21st century. What we don’t need is an energy company trying to profit from a town’s economic woes.

In case you haven’t noticed, the Cambridge Wolfe is sporting new clothes, and he’s looking more and more like the emperor every freakin’ day.

Holiday Issues

The Friday of Memorial Day Weekend turned into an eventful day around my Upper Meadows home in Greenfield. First, while taking a leisurely morning walk with my wife through the sunken meadow down the road, I lost the Tri-Tronics remote-control for my dog collars. Then, upon returning home after a quick, once-around search mission, I was confronted with a nest of five helpless baby Eastern phoebes on my backyard cook-shed floor. Two problems to disrupt a holiday and keep my wheels spinning.

My remote sends signals to two battery-operated collars I often use for training purposes and to keep my dogs out of harm’s way. When bird hunting, I keep the contraption in a special pocket at the bottom of my Filson nest, lanyard secured around my belt just in case it gets tangled and pulled free. Although that’s never occurred, it doesn’t hurt to be cautious. Tri-Tronics doesn’t give away its collars. On my daily rounds I usually slip the remote’s lanyard around my neck, convenient for leisurely walks but potentially in the way when hunting. For some reason on this day, wearing multi-pocketed Orvis shorts, I dropped the unit into an open pocket on my left quadriceps, lanyard dangling out. I wasn’t concerned. Figured I’d be walking the tangle-free perimeter of an open field in sandals, nothing challenging.

About halfway along our walk, skirting a riverside strip of woods shading us from the morning sun, dogs romping through dense, high orchard grass between rows of Christmas trees, we rounded a gentle bend toward a camper on the riverbank when a red-tailed hawk flew off the ground 80 yards in front of us. Lily saw the big bird and ran toward it, sticking her face into the spot from which it had flushed and returning with a freshly killed cottontail rabbit, still warm and limp, Buddy playfully trying to grab it, Lily objecting. I called Lily. She came and handed me the rabbit, which I carried by the hind legs and temporarily placed in the crotch of an apple tree to keep it away from the dogs. I distracted them by tossing a stick into the Green River. They chased it, took a swim, shook off and started running the field, giving me a chance to put the rabbit back where it came from before continuing along our circuitous route back to the truck. The dogs were off on other adventures, ignoring the rabbit. I was afraid they’d take a wide sweep toward the river and rediscover the bunny, but it didn’t happen, so the final leg of our loop went without incident.

When we got back to the truck, I wasn’t happy to discover my remote missing. I was puzzled. Had I pulled it from my pocket to bring Lily back with the rabbit? Maybe. Couldn’t recall. If so, I must have left it on the picnic table under the apple tree. So off we went, all four of us, to retrace our steps and find the missing remote, which, as it turned out, was nowhere to be found. Hmmmmmm? Should have turned up somewhere with four eyes searching. I thought about taking another trip around the field but figured I’d first return home to rule out the possibility of it dropping in my backyard, or maybe I had left it in the carriage-shed or on the kitchen counter. Predictably, it didn’t turn up on the home front. Then, it really started bugging me. Could Buddy have picked it up, run off with it and dropped it somewhere in the field, maybe between a row of Christmas trees? Possible, but I didn’t think so. Perplexed, my wheels were spinning to the scream of a dentist’s drill, shrill and annoying.

Later that day, still pondering, I took another walk through the meadow with the dogs, again retracing my steps, this time focusing special attention on the area near the apple tree and the spot where I had dropped the rabbit. No trace of the remote. The more I searched, the more it bugged me. What could have happened to it? By then, I was convinced the dog must have picked it up, run off and dropped it, complicating my hunt, making it near hopeless, real needle-in-a-haystack stuff. But where else could it be?

The recurring questions kept me awake that night and woke me early the next morning, pulling me from bed before 7. I went outside into the refreshing morning air, loaded the dogs in the truck and headed back to the sunken meadow, planning on a thorough search up and down the rows of Christmas trees if necessary, secretly fanaticizing that maybe Buddy or Lily would locate the damn thing and pick it up along the way. As it turned out, that wasn’t necessary because, as I walked around the high galvanized gate into the field, something caught my eye in a place I had twice searched the previous day. It must have been the soft morning sunlight that illuminated it, but there it was, my black remote with two buttons, green and red, facing me. It was resting atop vines more than a foot off the ground, black lanyard stretched out straight. I reached down, picked it up, slipped it around my neck and, relieved, walked the dogs joy
fully along my normal route, no intensive search required. A great start to the new day. Took the pressure off on a holiday weekend.

But that remote was just one of my issues. The other was the baby birds. Yes, back to those pathetic phoebes on the cook-shed floor. They hadn’t been there when I left for the fateful walk that had consumed me for a day, but there they were when we returned, a nest and five fledglings, three larger and more mobile than the others, all unable to fly. Buddy drew my attention to the nest by picking up his head alertly, freezing momentarily and following his nose to the base of the chimney ascending from the shed’s cement floor. I could see something there. Buddy picked it up and ran a short distance into the yard with it. He gave it a couple of playful shakes and tossed it into the air, a bird’s nest. It landed and he ran back into the small building. I quickly called him off and secured him and Lily in the kennel before investigating. That’s when I found the five baby birds huddled in what was left of their flimsy nest on the shed floor.
I was aware of the nest nestled into the crotch of a joist and crossbeam below the peak of the shed roof, but couldn’t understand what had brought it down. Perhaps the windstorm two days earlier had loosened it, then nesting activity had dropped it. Knowing I couldn’t reconstruct it, I decided to leave it where it lay to see if the parents would move their young to safety. But by 3 that afternoon, the pathetic little birds were still exposed on the cold floor, waiting for a cat or my dogs to grab them, parents chipping nervously from the nearby bass tree. I knew it was time to put on my thinking cap. Maybe I could find a small board and fasten it like a shelf to the spot from which the nest had fallen. That might work. So off to the barn I went, searching for the right board. In the process of searching through the stable, I discovered a handled, rectangular, wooden fruit basket and knew I had a found a solution. I’d put what was left of the nest and the baby birds in the basket, screw it through the handle to the 45-degree joist-and-crossbeam angle and see what happened. Hopefully, the parents would feed their young in the basket. I was confident they would. Then, once they could fly, I’d remove the basket and let them go their own way.

The plan worked to perfection. On Monday morning I went to the dogs and let them out of the kennel. Buddy ran directly into the cook-shed and out flew an immature phoebe, not a great flier but good enough to get away and land in a tree 50 or 60 feet away. The next afternoon while feeding the dogs, I inspected the nest from the aluminum ladder I had left in place. All that remained was the nest and one dead baby phoebe that must have been injured by the fall. It’s surviving nest-mates were gone. Likely they’ll return next year to build nests nearby or in the same building, a popular site for phoebes.

The new nest will probably stay in place better than that old one. If it ever again comes down, I’ll be prepared. The basket is resting on a box next to a stack of fruit crates just inside the barn door facing the cook-shed. Figured I better keep it handy. So now things on the home front are back to normal: remote recovered, birds rescued. Missions accomplished.

Riverside Romp

The hayfield was high, the stream low for mid-May as I descended the compacted farm road to a sunken meadow I visit daily with dogs Lily and Buddy, along a placid stretch of the Green River, still, knee-deep flat-water pooling above a sharp S-turn.

I was two-thirds of the way down a short decline to the Christmas-tree field when I heard a duck and spotted a mallard drake flying low along the water. It touched down 100 yards downstream, tantalizing Lily as she stood motionless along the bank, watching. Then the duck again flew when it caught me breaking into the clearing. The irritated green-head elevated high over the tall, streamside softwoods and circled the 10- or 12-acre plot, scolding us from above, eventually drawing Buddy’s attention along the back edge of the field. When he heard the quacking, he looked skyward, saw the duck and sprinted below it back in our direction. He gave up on the airborne duck upon reaching us and proceeded along what has become a familiar route, following a thin riverbank woods line to a small camper and circling back toward the truck along an alder wetland lip framing this quiet slice of Connecticut Valley paradise, songbirds everywhere. Along the loop, Buddy flushed red-winged blackbirds, starlings, robins, you name it, with his joyous, light ballet gait.

As we swung north down the homestretch — Buddy running big, working wide quarters, still flushing everything in his path — I noticed him stop and focus on something, nose high, ears alert. He lowered his head, moved in slowly toward the base of an infant Christmas tree and flushed a mallard hen a foot or two from his snout. Lily, 10 yards behind, noticed the flying duck and tore after it as Buddy watched briefly before sticking his nose into the spot vacated by the duck. Curious, I called him off with “leave it.” He picked up his head, caught Lily sprinting over the washed-out riverbank and promptly followed her, giving me an opportunity to investigate his find. Sure enough, a nest with five large eggs. I skirted the site as the scolding hen and drake circled above, called the dogs and went back to the truck for the return trip home.

On the walk up the road to a closed, galvanized gate, I noticed another mallard drake floating on the flat water above the S-turn. Perhaps he too had contributed to that nest. One never knows.

I guess, now, for a week or so, I’ll have to find another spot to run the dogs. Those eggs will soon become nestlings, and I wouldn’t want to disturb them at the wrong time, before they’ve found river protection. By then, the sunken meadow will be back to normal, providing a secluded natural playground where dogs can romp free and unrestrained, the way it’s meant to be, for bird and beast and man.

New Buddy

With Bessie and Ringo gone to doggie heaven, I was down to one English Springer Spaniel until this week, when a 10-month-old male from fancy breeding came my way through a field-trialer and wing-shooting friend. What sold me on this animal was his pedigree back to 1996 national champion Denalisunflo’s Ring, not to mention many other American and Canadian national champs. But Ring, the sire of my late dog Ringo (grandfather to Bessie), was the clincher. A Roy French champion, he had legendary stamina and spirit.

While I can’t deny this new dog arrived with retrieving “issues,” I’m sure I’ll be able to correct them with a lot of TLC and little pressure. I’ll just make it fun for him to retrieve a tennis ball or stick off the Green River shoreline, then show him the ropes in the field, let Lily be a model for displaying the joys of retrieving from thick, wet tangles. This new new pet comes with the name Buddy, which I’ll keep. I didn’t name Ringo, either. He came registered as “Sunrise Ringo,” then became Ringy, Bingy or Bingo, depending on my mood. The new guy is not registered but responds to Buddy, so why change it? Although still working on it, his name will probably be something like Old Tavern Farm’s Budding Dynamo or Hey Buddy. That works for me. Maybe I’ll even start with the kennel he came from, Poets Seat. We’ll see.

I always greet a new project with enthusiasm and confidence. I can tell already this guy will be easier than old Ringy, who could find, flush and retrieve birds with the best of them, bringing me immense joy along with some minor headaches over 13 years. This new guy looks a lot like Ringy, runs as big but, from first impressions, is more biddable, comes when called and responds well to my stag-horn whistle. I acquired both dogs at a little less than a year old from frustrated trainers, who typically seek easy students and sell the more difficult ones. Capable of being difficult myself, I have empathy for that personality type. Plus, the fact is that the spirited ones with an independent streak often turn out to be superior animals in the long run. We’ll see with Buddy.

This I can say for sure: If he’s half as good as Ringy, he’ll be great. My guess is he’ll be better.

Greed Kills

That “Drill, baby, drill” chant popularized by frothing, taunting, right-wing crowds during the McCain presidential run has been conspicuously silent in recent weeks, huh? Yep, the silence is deafening. Where have the proponents of offshore oil-drilling gone now that the Gulf of Mexico is swamped in environmental disaster, millions of gallons of crude oil fouling the ecosystem, potentially headed our way via the Gulf Stream … heaven forbid?

So tell me, did anyone ever believe offshore drilling was safe and clean, that people who thought otherwise were hysterical loons? That’s what Sarah Palin and her Republican legions would have liked us to believe. But when you consider that heavy hitters like Florida’s own Jeb Bush, certainly no liberal, wants nothing to do with offshore drilling along his coast, it ought to tell you something loud and clear: Yes, there is potential for disaster. We’re living it now, have lived it before, will live it again. Trust me.

So, tell me, who in their right mind would trust multi-billion-dollar oil corporations to police themselves, make certain all the safeguards and oversight are in place and working to avert disaster? Who? And who would trust anything Halliburton had a hand in? Not me. Doesn’t it all come down to profit, not conservation, in the perspective of CEOs and investors? Don’t corporations make more money when the fisher cat’s guarding the hen house? Of course. So who would trust the oil industry, buoyed now and then by shifting political winds? It’s a never-ending gotcha game. One administration takes over and enforces or enacts watchdog regulations, then another comes in and turns its back, lets things slide and — BAM! — another dreadful “accident” that likely could have been avoided with due diligence, inspection and conscientious oversight, all of which tend to cut into profit margins.

When I think of manmade disasters like the one ravaging the Gulf today, my focus unfortunately turns to a similar catastrophe potentially waiting to happen next door, at Vermont Yankee, along the border in neighboring Vernon, Vt., just a calm northern breeze away. Could a meltdown occur at that geriatric plant? Has enough radioactive pollution already been released into the water, the air and soil to compromise our health? Don’t dismiss such questions as insane. There is much we do not know, are not being told, will never be told. Then those who shout it in the public square are called crazy. You can’t believe a word the public-relations men and lobbyists say. Those who take their rhetoric as gospel are misguided fools. Energy corporations cannot be trusted. They’re capitalists, not conservationists, no matter what they tell you.

And, yes, hate to say it (not really) but that includes snake-oil salesman Matthew Wolfe, our friendly biomass man — you know, the one who supposedly has Franklin County’s best interests in mind. It’s a joke, not just toxic smoke, something else he has no short supply of.

Sorry, fellas, not in my backyard. Why don’t you send it to Texas or Oklahoma, Alabama or Mississippi or South Carolina, places that deserve it.

Myth and Mystery

I enjoyed an idyllic, restful weekend, reading studiously under bright sunny skies in the comforts of home, pleasing natural stimuli, sights and sounds, everywhere. Does it get any better?

My wife was out of town visiting grandsons Jordan and Arie, providing me with plenty of time to read a fascinating book about birds and their anthropomorphic ways. I purchased it noontime Friday at World Eye, was delighted to find a copy of the new release in stock, and delved right in upon returning home, not even waiting for my wife’s departure to the People’s Republic of Vermont, that great little state with independent Yankee DNA flowing back to Ethan Allen and friends. The book immediately seized me. I couldn’t put it down; was so committed, in fact, that I awoke at first light Saturday and Sunday mornings, dressing warmly, hat and all, windows wide open, before laying back on a leather couch to read under artificial light, serenaded throughout by sweet, incessant cardinal melodies, front and back, stereophonic, uplifting and, yes, even invigorating. What a way to start the day.

During intermittent breaks, I spotted a bright red male bird perched in the burning bush and sugar maple out front, later in the forsythia and large fir tree out back, so I knew some of the joyous tunes were his. Or were there two or three or more? I suspect a nesting female or two were also singing their happiest spring tunes, but I never saw one. Still, the songs were better than anything that could have been delivered by my clear Pres Speakers, innovative surround-sound units created totally by the hands and mind of old friend Mark Pieraccini, a man who loves baseball like no other. Well, I used to love it, too, maybe as much as he, perhaps even more. But now, consumed by other stuff, baseball’s behind me. I view it as kids’ stuff, great while it lasted, maybe even better than great; for had I been a songbird back then, I would have whistled rapturous tunes. No doubt about it.

Isn’t it strange how this new book, one I would recommend to anyone and am here discussing – “The Nesting Season: Cuckoos, Cuckolds, and the Invention of Monogamy,” by Vermont naturalist Bernd Heinrich – came to my attention? It all started with e-mail correspondence between me and a faraway, foreign cyber pal, during philosophical discussion about Christianity, the three forms of Greek love (eros, agape and philia), and monogamy. At one point in this enticing correspondence freshet, I questioned the popular myth we’ve all heard about birds mating for life, said it made no sense that nature would construct so rigid a rule when the goal of mating and courtship is to maintain and strengthen species. I wrote that I had been told for years not to hunt wood ducks because they mated for life, would never find another once their “first love” was gone. I told my faraway friend I had never believed it, viewed it as pure nonsense, even from my own mother’s mouth, because it violated the basic tenets of nature – my personal god, the only one that can drop me to my knees. I viewed the doubtful bird-monogamy concept as propaganda that fit snugly and conveniently into the same Christian Doctrine I rejected as a gullible peach-fuzzed lad. They tried to snare me back then and failed. I believe I’m a better man for it. Certainly not a true believer. Far from it.

But let us not digress. After stating my case in writing, off the cuff, about ornithological matters I knew little about, I was feeling a little insecure, like maybe I was talking through my, well, you know what. After all, there I was, basically an autodidact, certainly no academic, communicating with a world-renown doctor of science who probably knew more about the lifetime-mating theory than I. Maybe some birds do mate for life, I thought. Possibly she knew it to be so, would view me as a fool for suggesting otherwise. So I went to Google and started hunting information with different keywords – combos like “birds” “lifetime mates” or “birds” “monogamy.” Sure enough, up popped Heinrich’s latest book, fresh off the Harvard Press. I had to read it, and did.

My weekend reading chores began each morning in the west parlor before the sun peeked over the eastern tree line. Then, before 9, I’d move to a comfy backyard table in the alcove formed between barn and woodshed. There, catching hot rays through a clear blue sky, I was serenaded by some of the birds I was reading about, mostly cardinals. It was surreal, distant  rattle of the stream, maybe 100 feet away, adding soft percussion, like brushes petting a snare drum. At times, the cardinals’ song would distract me, pull me away from Heinrich’s prose. My eyes would stay focused, not my mind, which would go briefly elsewhere, thinking about the cardinals and what all the singing meant, maybe wandering further off to more complex matters. But I always found my way back to the book and regained focus, my goal maximum comprehension, not always easy with your mind awhirl.

Fact is, despite reading a detailed account of bird-nesting behavior, I never really understood why those cardinals were so happy and vocal. It had to have something to do with nesting and mating, I thought, but why exactly they were so vociferous was above my pay grade. Then, Monday afternoon, the singing abruptly stopped after my daily feeding trip to the kennel and pooch Lily. I had heard their blissful songs throughout the day while reading the new Rolling Stone, and had several times through the back windows seen a brilliant male perched brightly on a dead fir limb 10 or 12 feet off the ground. All had been quiet when I walked through strong, blustery winds to the cookshed, where I opened the 30-gallon plastic tub, took a scoopful of Iams and dumped it into a Griswold No. 8 skillet for Lily. After greeting her, tail wagging, at the kennel door and placing the skillet at the back right corner, I returned toward the woodshed and spotted a faraway clump of something that had not been on the ground below the fir tree during the outbound trip. As I approached the tall tree towering over the barn roof, I could see it was a bird’s nest. I picked it up and found underneath the remains of three or four broken blue eggs, right below the perch used many times by the male cardinal. A coincidence? Who knows? Not likely, though, in my mind.

Being no ornithologist, I could not say for sure that the fallen nest belonged to cardinals. Northern cardinal eggs I Googled were cream colored with brown speckles, not solid blue, and cardinal nests were not constructed like the one I found. But I knew the singing had stopped after the nest fell. So my guess at the time was that it was those cardinals’ nest, and that the singing would resume when another was built, a new clutch laid. Call it deductive reasoning, which, at the time, was all I had. Kind of like my uninformed opinion that birds do not mate for life. That suspicion was confirmed by Heinrich, a veritable expert. He says birds are monogamous by necessity, not choice; and that even after they’ve secured a partner for mating season, cuckoldry is not uncommon. Imagine that! I shudder at the thought, then break into a wry grin. For the umpteenth time, an interesting discovery has tickled my armpit. What discovery? Well, the knowledge that sometimes you don’t need a gilt-framed diploma to figure things out. Common sense often suffices, is more than enough. That fallen nest may have been a robin’s, or maybe even a robin’s nest under consideration or already populated by cardinals. Possible, I guess, but would need more research for a definitive answer. What I know for sure, though, is that the cardinal singing went silent after that nest tumbled to the turf. Then all was quiet for more than 24 hours, not a peep anywhere within earshot. Everything changed following Tuesday’s damaging, late-afternoon rainstorm when, sometime after 5, the singing resumed like it had never stopped. By Wednesday morning, sweet cardinal tunes could be heard all around me; from my yard, front and back, my neighbors’ yards, across the brook – a cheerful symphony in dynamic stereo. I looked out and caught two frisky scarlet males involved in a chase from tree to tree, bush to bush, through the front yard, one right on the other’s tail, both low to the ground, the one in back scolding the pursued with a staccato chipping sound. Maybe the chaser had been cuckolded, heaven forbid. Nature’s way, it seems.

I again pondered why the singing had resumed and what had stopped it for more than a day? It must have had something to do with that fallen nest, or perhaps another, unseen, that had tumbled down in the same tree-swaying wind.

Then again, when you think of it, does it really matter? Isn’t it sometimes better not to know? Nature’s mysteries are entertaining, intriguing and capable of wildly spinning your wheels to a shrill scream. Usually, that’s  good enough for me.

Stormy Skies

It’s that time of year when, sadly, I must report, not write, despite what’s going on around me. Given a choice, I always prefer writing to reporting. There’s a big difference. One not everyone understands.

The time is right for writing. Perfect, in fact. The early spring has produced a rare overlap of beautiful colors from the magnolia, forsythia, Japanese maples, apple, quince, bleeding hearts and Quanson cherries simultaneously adorning my yard in their full splendor. The rhubarb and asparagus are ready for their first cuts, and even the lilacs beneath the magnolia are sporting tiny purple blossoms while many full magnolia flowers still ride the cold, blustery wind on their flimsy shoots; very unusual, first time in 13 years on my property that the lilacs have shown color before the magnolia tree turned green, its scattered pink tulip petals rotting on the turf below. So here I sit, space-heater purring behind me, spot-heating, refusing to start the wood stove or tip up the thermostat for this cold snap that’ll soon turn warm.

Speaking of pink, how about that Full Pink Moon in the sky, the one I promised weeks ago was due for opening week of turkey season; weather permitting, would likely stimulate aggressive daybreak gobbling from boss toms? When I left work Tuesday night, I could feel that bright moon behind dense stormy clouds high in the southern sky, its filtered light illuminating downtown Greenfield, casting a favorable hue over the uplifting facelift bordering the town common. Miraculously, by the time I arrived home, some three miles north and west, and stepped outside to run the dog, the moon shone brightly in a clear, starry hole framed by billowy gray clouds, akin to a large floodlight peeking through a wide, unruly smoke ring, the sphere sneaking through leafing streamside maples and reflecting off a Hinsdale Brook eddy. The sight and sound spun me off into reflection and introspection as they often do. Call it lunar influence, which again infected me, brightening a cold, gray week in a suddenly clear midnight sky; as though the clouds intentionally opened to remind me the moon was there, looking over my shoulder, coddling me till the sky cleared, the air warmed.

Gray, overcast days and full moons might signal trouble for some. Take a friend I know who recently got into a turkey-hunting jam that’s haunting him. This good, honest man now finds his fate in the hands of the government, the law, which doesn’t often display empathy for honest mistakes. Maybe someone will intervene and inject some fairness into the authorities investigating this sorry case. Perhaps they’ll understand that the way the illegality played out clearly identifies it as an error, a twist of fate, not a crime. I hope so. The man deserves a break, nothing less. But the people calling the shots probably won’t care, seldom do in such cases. Sometimes judges and juries or officers of the law must understand the gray, not just black and white. They must be willing to explore the spirit of the law, the reason it was enact ed, not just the fact that a rule has been broken. At least that’s the way I see it, not from the rigid law-and-order, red-white-and-blue perspective; my view more philosophical, not cut and dried as prosecutors and cops often demand these unforgiving days.

Remember, this opinion’s coming from a taxpaying citizen who just Tuesday appeared for jury duty in Orange, was seated and promptly yanked by the prosecutor for the third time this millennium. I guess men who reason like me are not meant to be jurors in 21st century courtrooms, even in a liberal state. And to think I now sit passing judgment at my desk, seated on a long-ago discarded walnut chair from the Hampden County Court. Is it irony or coincidence? You decide.

But, like they say, life goes on. Then you die. I guess when you think of it, we’re all just passing through a place much bigger and more complex than any of us.

Fact is, like most, I wasn’t eager to serve on that jury, anyway. Fancy that. For once a member of the majority, far from silent.

Coincidence?

What a difference a day makes. That’s what I was thinking the day after last week’s column about the spring buds and flowers that had greeted me on a morning backyard visit with dog Lily.

What had struck me first the previous day were the burning bush’s tiny pink buds, a new color, subtle, lining the brook’s bank by the cook shed. After studying the tiny buds, I looked around to assess the progress of other trees and bushes, later recording in print what I had observed. Following a day of hot, bright sun and temps nearing 80, everything changed. That same burning bush was sporting green, not pink, the forsythia was in full yellow bloom and the maples wore that pretty pastel green of spring, having overnight gone from buds to tiny mayfly wings. But that is not what I want to discuss today. No, I want to focus on the saucer magnolia and coincidence. Yes, coincidence, something I have wrestled with often following surreal discoveries related to me and this valley called home. My conclusion is that very few weird discoveries I encounter are coincidence, but rather something far more spiritual — this from a man who’d break out in hives on a trip through the chapel door.

I wrote last week that I intended to fulfill a promise by sending a faraway female cyber pal photos of the large magnolia along the east side of my home. I wanted to reciprocate for pictures she had sent me of a Hawaiian magnolia flower weeks earlier. Later in the day, I evaluated the tree and decided to wait. More blossoms would be open the next day. So, wait I did, shooting several shots back-lit by the late-morning sun before e-mailing them to my German friend. A typical heartfelt response the next day brought me once again into the realm of coincidence vs. something deeper and more powerful; maybe a simple twist of fate, more likely a spiritual puppeteer playfully working his strings:

Dear Gary,
How nice of you to think of me and send these gorgeous sights! I had a bit of a difficult day yesterday — it was the 9th anniversary of Jon’s passing. Seeing the beautiful magnolia blossoms and learning that spring has arrived in your place really cheered me up. I do hope to meet you in person some day, dear cyber pal. Have a great weekend and enjoy the beauty of spring.
With much aloha,
Hannelore

She was referring to a boyhood pal of mine who moved far from his Franklin County home before departing this world too young, at 47, a cancer victim in Hawaii. It was there she met him and suffered through his illness, patiently nursing him along until his mom and late sister arrived for his final weeks; never easy for anyone. Hannelore has not forgotten her late friend. At least once a year she sends me a check for graveside flowers to adorn his peaceful resting place, protected under the canopy of massive hardwoods, even stately shagbark hickory, one of my favorites.

So, tell me: Was it coincidence that on an April 8 whim — sitting at my desk on a sun-splashed morn, magnolia beckoning though the window to my left, forsythias screaming from across the street — I stood to get my camera, take some shots and send them to my cyber pal? Or was I magically lifted from my seat by a force I cannot explain to brighten a sad day being suffered by a lady friend I have never met?

I cannot accept that quick trip across the south face of my old tavern as coincidence. Far more profound. Spooky, in fact.

Is it real? Or have I gone mad?

I guess it depends on the evaluator.

Native Wonders

I was out back early Wednesday morning with four-legged friend Lily by the brook, running clear and strong, its soothing rattle penetrating dense air as the dog made her rounds, splashing enthusiastically across a shin-high rapid to wet her coat before taking a little romp on the opposite bank. She broke into the perimeter of a small hayfield, nose high into a crosswind, searching for squirrels, rabbits, maybe turkeys, anything to flush or chase up a tree. The cool, damp air was pleasant, the sun hidden beneath foggy skies that would soon burn off and bring the predicted 85-degree April day, potentially a record, perfect for the nighttime Yankees-Red Sox rubber game.

The neighborhood dogwoods and star magnolias had worn brilliant white for days, and my own forsythias had been in bloom, not peak, since the weekend, nicely complementing the yellow daffodils. Now the lilac buds had popped into tiny little green wings that seemed to visibly grow as I stood looking at them in the dull, most air that had deposited a delicate, web-like dew across the greening lawn, clearly identifying my path, showing every step I had taken from the woodshed stoop to the kennel door, then across the mouth of the cook-shed to the lip overlooking water’s edge. I noticed, standing there, that the tiny pink buds on the streamside burning bush were more noticeable than the previous day and would likely be more prominent, even from afar, after a day of bright, hot sun, the same conditions that promised to bring out the saucer magnolia blossoms on the gabled east side of the house. They had been threatening to pop for days, just needed intense sun and heat to stimulate the process. I reminded myself to later in the day snap a digital photo of that tree, one of the oldest, most beautiful magnolias in the county, tightly clenched, pink buds waiting for days to burst and reach their showy tulip petals skyward. I had promised to e-mail cyber pen pal Hannelore Hoch a photo when it bloomed. A German professor/author/curator and friend of a friend who died too young near her vacation home in Hawaii, Hannelore loves flowers and had sent me a tight shot of a Hawaiian saucer magnolia flower six or eight weeks ago, her harbinger of spring. It was then that I promised to e-mail her a shot of my own magnolia when in blossomed. I knew the time had come, waning moon settling this two-legged lunar creature temporarily into a peaceful orbit. The new moon will appear in a week, leading to a full moon at the end of the month, brightening the prospects for opening week of turkey season. The night skies will then likely be crisp and clear and cold, perfect to entice throaty gobbles from predawn hardwood roosts. Something promising for hunters to eagerly anticipate.

The sound and sight of the free-flowing stream and the thick morning air reminded me of spring fishing, and the fact that stocking reports would likely be waiting in my e-mail inbox before 9. As I watched the stream’s current, it brought me back to my younger days, when this time of year I often pushed myself to the water’s edge at the crack of dawn, before the birds sang, to take advantage of ideal water conditions and voracious feeding by shaded mountain trout. Back then, I’d catch my limit before most people were awake, clean the fish streamside, return home to package them in Ziploc bags and deliver them to my paternal grandmother, always an early riser. She’d keep what she could eat and give the rest to friends who thoroughly enjoyed them. When I kept trout for myself, they’d always be squaretails, large or small, baked or pan-fried, their moist orange meat one of New England’s natural delicacies, right up there with fiddleheads and strawberries. I learned many waters that held the beautiful, native, speckled trout and likely still do, although I have heard disheartening tales to the contrary from brook-trout aficionados. I don’t want to believe them, would rather remember how it used to be, sneaking into the back side of reservoirs or private ponds we all knew well as boys and fished regularly, always early, before household light bulbs burned.

Stocked trout were fun to catch. I can’t deny that — acrobatic, sky-pilot  rainbows bursting from the riffles, furiously wiggling in midair, hooked, irate and trying to shake or break it. But they could never compare to squaretails as table fare, and I well knew the difference. Still do. Give me a native any day, be it fish or foul or animal, two or four-legged.

Yeah, maybe I am a snooty New Englander. Not the least bit ashamed of it, either. Quite proud, in fact.

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